I koped this from Hsiehhui because I am really addicted to this song.

假使不能公開妒忌
學習大方接受
同行時要殿後
誰冷落舊朋友
節日約我三位一體的慶祝
沿途明亮燈飾閃映著沉重
言談越熾熱
內在更冰凍

誰當初無心將兩方綴合
然後留低　只得這寂寞人
仍是你們密友　呆望你們熱吻
應該傷感還是快感

＊能迴避嘛　我怕了當那電燈膽
　黏著你們　來來回　委曲中受難
　一個我被撇低　卻又很不慣
　要走的一剎又折返
　能承認嘛
　我故意當那電燈膽
　他日你們完場時
　入替也不難
　善良人埋藏著最壞的心眼
　妄想一天你們會散
　會選我嗎＊

對換了你身份可應該滿足
情人還是知己都擁入懷抱
同情或眼淚　讓別個得到
留低的原因　一世的秘密
其實明知只得我是外人
仍是你們密友　呆望你們熱吻
應該開心還是痛

2.4 was damn screwed as usual, I think I will do the retest. Then again, that's if I feel like it? :/ Cause now I only can get a bronze for napfa. Hm. Muscle ache everywhere anyway. -.- Don't ask how come only my arms hurt and my legs don't after 2.4.

9.5/15 for geography class test because I identified the wrong forest and immediately got the whole question wrong (which was 4 marks). Lol.

19/25 for bio class test, which is damn screwed up because I threw away 3 marks (by leaving it blank). I thought it sounded damn stupid so yeah, but it turned out to be the right answer. Raaah.

Stayed back after school with Liangjie and Jamie at 411 to mug.

Left soon after to the airport since my cousin was arriving from HK.

So she brought back for me a lot of Jay concert merchandise. She went for the concert. Yup. Now I have like 8 files, 2 handphone straps (the pretty silver one too), 2 bags and a ring. They're all really pretty so you can be jealous.

Will post pictures tomorrow, or when I feel like it.

Siao liao la. I'm going to freaking screw up myes. I haven't really started studying and am still here now?? Wth. It's goodbye to Direct admission already.

Might be going to JJC open house for their talk on debate or something. I'm not going because I'm interested in going to JJC. I'm not at all. I just want to go for the debate. :D

Bye. Tomorrow's a holiday. (:

(edited;10.10pm)
Oh I think I forgot to mention that I was late today, again. Shit man. Though Evelyn was later than me today. She reached at a wonderful 8am. Perhaps this is the result of overindulgence in ben & jerry's. I'm going to owe so many hours of detention. K, I must refrain from cursing from now on. -.-
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I rotted the school day away. I was singing with Amanda and okay, I did read a little bit of geography. Ha.

After school was napfa 5 stations. Damn amazing, I was. 185cm for SBJ. HAHAHAHA!! Though I have come to a conclusion that SBJ should never be your last station if not you will just die. Or maybe it was because I did shuttle run 4 times and inclined pull-ups 3 times (with different teachers). I went to retry after everything and jumped 130cm, which is like wth okay. -.-

Okay la, I had a lot of help from Evelyn. I think I am damn pro! I can do the sitting down and stretching and don't know what thing to warm up my legs, and I always did it for fun, without knowing it's actually useful. Anyway, Evelyn's pretty good and quite motivating. Lol, I'll try your strategy tomorrow and hopefully do okay for 2.4km for once in my life. She thought me how to be able to stretch further too. Hmm. Thanks a lot, girl. Lots of love. :D

Then Evelyn and I chiong-ed to vivo in half an hour and went to queue for ben & jerry's. Rofl, free cone day!! And we queued twice. Half an hour for each cone. Lol! Major unglam and xiasuay-ness. I missed tuition so I'm going to make up on Sunday.

Btw, I thought I stepped down but I still have a campfire in June to attend. On the bright side, it's going to be at HCJC. Haha. I'm damn tired. And my right elbow hurts like crap wth.

Three cheers for today. The Ben & Jerry's free cone day. And also to the day that I jumped the furthest I have ever jumped in my whole entire life. Hip hip hooray.

K, bye. Just reached home and it's like 10 already. o_O

P.S. You know what? Life is screwed la. HCJC has a cutoff of 3 points while SAJC has a cutoff of 8 points. I want to go to a JC and join debate. If I can't make it to a good one though, I'm probably going to do mass communications in ngee ann. Lol! Sorry, I just like talking a lot. Imagine me hosting a talkshow or something. Like whoa, you get to talk for like hours!! :x

Basketbasketbasket. Damn pissed with myself. I have done nothing, at all, ever since I came home from school. And why am I so freaking distracted!!!!!

Napfa five stations tomorrow. 2.4 on Wednesday. Can't wait. -.-

Screw. (Caitlyn's future son's name)

Hmm, to end off with a nice song. Your love is a lie, by Simple Plan.

I fall asleep by the telephone
It's 2 o'clock and I'm waiting up alone
Tell me where have you been?

I found a note with another name
You blow a kiss, but it just don't feel the same
Cause I can feel that you're gone

I can't bite my tongue forever
While you try to play it cool
You can hide behind your stories
But don't take me for a fool

You can tell me that there's nobody else
(But I feel it)
You can tell me that you're home by yourself
(But I see it)
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want
But I know
Your love is just a lie
It's nothing but a lie

You look so innocent
But the guilt in your voice gives you away
Yeah you know what I mean
How does it feel when you kiss when you know that I trust you

And do you think about me when he f**ks you?
Could you be more obscene?

So dont try to say you're sorry
Or try to make it right
Don't waste your breath because it's too late, it's too late.

Paper 1 was screwed, for both languages.

"Practicing euthanasia is equivalent to murder." What is your opinion?
I saw that and was like wth?! Then I realized there was no more argumentative for me to write. So yeah, I wrote an expositary (however you spell it) and aiya screw la.

Spent lunch till end of school at 411. It was rather funny because I named my future son erm.. omg I can't remember how to spell his name! Laughed like crap. I studied with Caitlyn outside class. Okay fine, I was reading their history textbook so I didn't really study anything for the exams.

After school went back to class, did a bit of ss notes and left.

At the moment, my only friends are touchy and textbooks. Jiayou Cheryl, you can do it. Mug hard. There's only less then half a year left before it's goodbye, for real. Touchy believes in you, even if no one else does.

Same goes for everyone else. Good luck for myes. :D

The future holds so much more for us. (Lol, exactly what I wrote in the conclusion to my terribly screwed up essay.) So I cannot give up just yet. I will make it. I have to. :/

现在学着去遗忘 躲开有你的地方
回忆被谁放在书架上 把它从最高的地方落下
感动越是深刻 寂寞就越伤人
每个人的心里都会有一段伤恒

(edited;7.15pm)
I have this sudden crazy temptation to get my hair extensions nowwww. ):
Ha, bold and contrasting colours, come to me. One more month to go!
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Warning: Lesbian content. You are allowed to not scroll down and close this window. :D

People who couldn't sit still on the chairs. And the muggers who can actually sit still for long periods of time.Cheryl, Yanling, Evelyn, Amanda.Ruffles are going to find me to advertise for them.



Firstly, to the person whom I accidentally woke up in the middle of the night yesterday just because I was feeling horribly sucky and all.. I think we've drifted apart and we hardly talk nowadays. Nevertheless, I know I can still count on you. Hmm, thank you.

Next, Rachel says I'm good at hugs! Lollol. Then you should hug me more, love. :D

Okay, so I had a lot of fun at Sentosa today. Please do not ask what the hell I'm doing there when I have papers tomorrow and midyears are this week. The photos will do all the talking next time.

See you.

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF.

Basket, all the motivation has disappeared again.

I talk a lot, hope a lot and wish for a lot.
But it all comes down to nothing.

Argggghhhh, I hate being me.

Thanks to Raymond for the english formats.

For formal letter;

Sender's full name
Address

Date

Receiver's full name
Designation if any (Position)
Organisation Name if any
Address

Dear Sir/Mdm

Heading

Recommended minimum of 5 paragraphs

Yours faithfully/sincerely
Signature
Sender's name
Designation if any (Position)

For proposal;

Date

To:

Title

Body (Start by stating who you are and what you want to propose)

Thank you

Proposed by ____
Position

I am getting more and more confused by the format though. o_O

I like this song. :D

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起做梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动

我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手 最暖的胸口


我放手 我让座 假洒脱
谁懂我多么不舍得
太爱了 所以呢
没有哭 没有痛


Lol.

I've finished reading sec 3 ss. Going to do math and read some stuff for paper 1 on monday.

Still don't have the format for english proposal/formal letter and etc. Raah.

To my lovely darlings, besties and all. And of course, to the people who believe in me, which comes down to really few. I'm sure you will know who you are. Aye, basically this is for you if you've put up with me countless times. :D

你知道我多傻 在你面前从来不用逞强
听我说说话 让我靠一下
我们都是这样 想要幸福却都跌跌撞撞
可是不要怕 有我在身旁

能放心的哭一场 是再微笑的力量
只有你明白我的疯狂 不管故事有多长
世界对我太善良 这一路上有你
我变得坚强

让眼睛看不到 嫉妒的燃烧
让耳朵听不到 谎言的吵闹
在没有人相信 爱能永恒那一秒 我们正坚定的微笑

Indeed I am very motivated today. I am going to become a chao mugger and I must get at least 6A1s next year. Just you wait. :D

Ya ya I know everyone is laughing and no one really believes me, even my family. Whatever, please. -.-

After school, Amanda and I went SOMEWHERE. Hahaha.

Okay fine never mind, had a mugging session at skygarden with Evelyn, Amanda, Yanling, Jingwei, Yunian. Ordered pizza. Haha I realize they're all the 212 people. Ah anyway it was quite productive. Yunian, Jingwei and Amanda helped me with my physics and we did maths together.
We were pretty late for speech day, amazingly, seeing as we never left school in the first place.

Jocelyn bought for me subway cookies! :D

Speech day was rubbish. Lol. It seemed like we were the only class singing the school song damn loudly. I don't know. 409 had no one getting anything for cca or academic. But don't worry. We will have everyone coming back to get prizes next year! :D

Photos are with Evelyn and Rachel so I'll post them next time.

Zomg, hot pink fbts. They're so cute ok.

One look at you and I know what you’re thinking
Time’s a bitch and my heart is sinking down
You turn me inside out

I got a nice song yesterday, 電燈膽. It's in cantonese but it's nice ok. It's the first cantonese song that I think is very nice so yeah. You can go hear it and see the lyrics (in Chinese?) on Hsiehhui's blog. :D

The morning was like o_O Imagine if guides and bb were all caught. Rofl.

Assembly was boring. Zaogeng-ing in front of the whole upper sec. Hmm. Won't you feel naked wearing skirts without shorts?!?! Okay anyway, why waste so much time on your appearance for a 'skit' that was barely 5 minutes. Lol.

Hello sunshine, love!! ♥♥♥

Left halfway through chinese remedial with Jocelyn and Ian because it seemed to be dragging on forever. Went home with Jocelyn, Ian and Yuanting. Maybe staying around this area isn't that bad after all. Subway subway! Hmm.

Off to do bio workbook already. Hopefully, get some studying done too.

(edited;9.23pm)
9.5/25 for physics revision test is like whoa. I'm gna screw up midyears like asdf. Let me pass everything plssss. On the bright side, I've completed my bio workbook. And omg omg omg, ben & jerry's free cone day!!! *hyperventilates* Wooh, they're the best ice cream you can ever have in your lifetime or two.
(/edit)

Take me on the floor
I can't take it anymore
I want you I want you I want you to show me love

I am amazing. I have been late everyday this damn week. -.-

And I really, really want to/must get a prize for next year's speech day because I haven't gotten any at all, after so many years. Rofl, don't tell me to dream on. Just shut up.

"Huh not boring meh? You mean you sit there for two hours and watch people getting prizes?"
"Ha okay. Next year I get prize then you can see me and won't be bored already."

Left handers have a shorter lifespan than the average right hander by like seven or nine years. Yet, Eckerene and Huishan tried to shorten my already short lifespan by drawing all over my arms. Literally all over. Each drop of ink actually shortens your life by a few seconds. It's murder, indirectly. Okay okay, so I started it. Whateverzxzx. Very fun though. I wrote on Eckerene's leg as well. Hahaha!

If only we could really try out the teachers exchange program for a week or something. :/

K. Need. To. Finish. Homework.

(edited;9.22pm)
Finally done with bio skill 3 and finished up most of the CSS chem paper. Perhaps being offline helps a lot more than I thought it would. Hmm. I came online to print physics notes.
Everything is so contradicting. And my darlings, hate is no good. Indifference. :D
Lol, basket. I can't be late tomorrow already. If not I'm seriously going to get it manzzz.
BUT, HAHAHA OMG DAMN CUTE. :D

Love me or hate me, it's still an obsession.
Love me or hate me, that is the question.
If you love me, then thank you.
If you hate me, then f you.

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I passed physics revision test 1. 18/33. Not bad already okay. Seeing as I got only 1 mark for the mcq and I got almost all the questions that involved explaining wrong, including the one asking for definition. Only that my calculations were all right. -.-

School was productive. Surprise, surprise. I finished my zuo wen in school. The one I didn't do yesterday because I was completely bummed out and in no mood to do anything. And I also did half of the geog homework. Pigs can fly. (hahaha Ashleigh, not funny.)

Hmm, I have about one and a half hour before I need to go for tuition. I hope I can do something since my mood definitely isn't as rotten as it was yesterday.

One more thing. I was late, again, today. Zzz.

Please don't put words in my mouth. I really don't wish to push the blame around. I believe this doesn't concern anyone else and I have forgotten all about it already. Leave me alone instead of acting like you know me oh just too well, thank you. Don't worry, I'm not pissed. Tokihanatsu~

(edited;9.08pm)
Raaah, I'm never going to survive through this year. I should just go mug like hell till I die of stress or something. How lovely, isn't it?
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Kore ijou ittemo shou ga nai.

Con amore,

Reached school late today. Got the pink form but I can keep it as a souvenir since I have a valid excuse. Teehee. I am damn good ok, really.

I think bio prac was amazing. I was one of the few (if not the only) who got positive results for benedict's test. Of course, that may be wrong but.. don't knowww.

Chem test was crap. I mean, she didn't even mark.
The a maths test on trigo we got back was even more crap. I got like 3/20.
Physics test was worse. I converted nothing at all. -.-

On the bright side, enrichment was like free period. And it was spent being gay. Sat outside half the time. Me eyeing some pretty girl. A lot of group hugs. Etc etc.

Now, I shall do the stupid zuo wen that everyone did on thursday but I wasn't in school so.. D:

You know what? Just screw school. I still haven't started studying when midyears are a week away and have no mood at all to start. I give up. I really, really give up. I won't make it anyway.

没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走掉
Sorry, I've been a bitch. It's too late. I took too long to realize but now that I have, I'm sorry.

So the funeral, cremation and all is over already. Anyway, I think my grandmother will be in a better place than this lousy Earth now and she'll probably be happier there.

Ate at crystal jade and anderson's with my relatives. My cousins and I sat at a table by ourselves, without the adults. Everyone got one dish and yeah, spent quite a lot.

(edited;9.43pm)
Lol omg, I just found out from Joyce that the bill was $812 and the service charge plus gst was like $120. Wth. o_O
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I think the photo with buddy where we both aren't looking at the camera is rather cute. It's nicer than the photo that we were both looking at the camera. Rofl,

Hmm, I need to study for physics test. Zzz.

Did I mention I failed chem metals test? Jesse marked it in front of me. -.-

I just found out there's physics test on Monday. Seeing as I will not be free tomorrow, it probably means less viwawa today because I have to start studying. Hmm.

Anyway, yesterday was pretty fun. Yes, I was at the wake. But we were playing mahjong. Lol! I think I suck. I really need to train more online first.

(edited;11.51pm)
Oh ya. I am very sad that I can't wear the size 29 black hot shorts I bought. It's really pretty. Same cutting as nf but the brand isn't nf. Anyway, it's too big so yeah. I'ma get newfuture hot shorts and pink fbts. Lol!

I'm blogging on iPod touch now. Hmm so I'll make this post as short as possible. Then I'll post again when I get back home which may be tomorrow.

Had no lessons at all today and we camped at the gate because we couldn't leave till 11. 409 was like the first class and we counted down at the gate. Super funny k.

Class lunch at pizza hut was fine. My table was scary. Hahah we got main courses each and shared a pizza. We still had soup and all.
Must be because we had alethea there. Ha ok kiddingzzz, love you girl.

Sports day was really fun though we only got to cheer for 3 events. LOL.
Damien is damn bimbo one ok! He took bimbo photos with me luh.
And 409 was like so high. We were pretty exaggerating la. But we were really loud and high and were throwing many people in the air, even Ms Lim. Hahaha. Ran one round together too. I think we can go be cheerleaders manzzz.

409 is the best :D
love love y'all. And cheers to everyone who ran for heats and today. Grats damien and huiqin for winning too :D

Kay, bye. Touchy is dying.

Rather than to be woefully ignorant.

Just so you know, I don't argue with everyone and anyone okay. If you are nice to me, I will be nice to you too. So yeah.

I am aware this is my third post today. Hmm, okaaay. Going to study metals. Bye.

(edited;12.05am)
Oh hello, it's Friday. I can't wait for class lunch @ pizza hut tomorrow and sports day. I really, really want to eat. We reserved seats (409 & 410) already so don't even think about disturbing us. Okay, I'll shut up now.

(edited;12.32am)
I feel like wearing lime fbts tomorrow! I know I will look like a crazy freak (which I am) so I won't be wearing it, I guess. Pfft.

I don't think I'm going to school tomorrow. Or rather, today, since it's past midnight already.
Actually, I might but probably not la. Okay, bye.


I am still very, very tired but I have to leave the house to go to the.. wake? I don't know what's it called. Anyway yeah I'll be doing that this whole week. I'll probably reach home (my mum says) around 12.

Surprise, surprise. 409 didn't get A for cleanliness and we were made to stay back in the hall. Now, we're supposed to be remorseful and pick up litter in the canteen after recess, after lunch and stuff. Rofl. She's very amusing.

Bio was funny, as usual. Seeing as we're still at sexual reproduction.

Ran 2.4. I think I ran less than last week yet I seemed to either maintain/improve the timing a little bit. I barely even ran today. o_O

SS was pretty funny. We suggested a teachers exchange program to Ms Sathi. And we're not going to wear corrective work order (CWO) shirts, we're going to be wearing NGA. Never Get A. Lollollol.

Maths and Chinese were the usual, boring. Mr Chia was crazy when he came to class. Hmm.

Had guides after school. I think next week is the sec fours' last meeting. Yes, I know you all will miss me. Right, Vanessa and Sheryl?! :D

Please don't be a loser and try to blame me/my friends for your own inability to do well. Don't bullshit that people are biased and make it my/my friend's fault. Because it isn't. Things don't always go your way. Besides, these stuff are based on much more than just one person.

Be a man. Do the right thing, man. -.-


I just came home from NUH. My grandmother passed away today so yup. Pretty tiring since I cabbed there right after tuition and haven't started on homework or anything.

You don't have to worry though, I'm still going to school. Only have to miss physics remedial on Saturday because of the funeral, I guess.

Hmm. The voltage I calculated for physics was even more than the battery could supply but whatever. I don't think I did anything wrong, somehow.

I think I'll go do SS now. Damn stressed. I won't have time to be doing homework or studying for the next few days. As in, seriously no time. Freak.

Au revoir.

School was demoralizing. Typical.

I think you are a very ugly annoying thing and should really just get a life and stop being a noisy twit.

I'm sure I flunked today's physics test since I could hardly do anything. And I left a lot of blanks.

It's okay. I will go mug with qin ai de at kap on weekends. I'm sure we're much smarter than _, just that we're lazy. We can do it de okay. Love you! :D
Pls don't get the wrong idea. :D

And I have wonderfully amazing besties like Amanda Ang Qi Qi and Caleb Lim Liang Jie. Lol! I was lazy to bring my chem text and I just asked them if they had it in school. Both of them offered to bring for me. So nice of them right! I bet you're fuming with jealousy because you don't have besties like them. I know I am such a lucky girl. Hahaha thanks a lot, besties! :D

Walked to the bus stop with two more darlings today, Huishan and Eckerene.

Then waited for the bus for half an hour with qin ai de. In point form, we alighted at the wrong stop. Transferred money for Yanling and myself. Walked around. Ate at taka basement. Got lost. Walked round and round Orchard. Finally arrived at far east plaza. Tried nf shorts. Walked around to find shorts etc etc.

I'm very happy I'm not as fat as I thought I was. And the nf hot shorts aren't very short on me so yeah I think I'm getting some online at $16 a pair, rather than $29.90 at the store at far east. Yup.

Took 700 home. Surprisingly, there was no jam. So I arrived home slightly wet but still reasonably early. At least it was only around 6.30?

Kay, bye. I am happy happy happy!!!! :D

Aiya basketttttt. :(

I feel very, very drained and am losing motivation already. I don't feel like studying physics nor finishing homework.

What do you truly know about me?

And I'm so tired. I'm not your toy, for you to talk to when you feel like it and for you to throw away when you have other things to do. Yeah, they were always all right.

I believed, one too many times. False hopes, sheesh.

I'm so sad. There's no more camps for me to go to probably until JC orientation (if I even go to a JC anyway). I'd had so much fun during guides camp and sec 3 camp last year. Pfft.

Neber mindzz. My customized little miss notebook, forever21 sunglasses and pullover, bags from PG spree (long ago), skirts from spree (long ago) should be leaping into my arms soon, I think. Haha can't wait for the sunglasses and bags especially.

I want more bags more bags more bags. Sorely tempted to buy now then they'll arrive during June or something. Just the right time to change bags. Excuses, lol.

Okay, I haven't finished any homework. But I'm proud to say I've started on chem skill 3. Tch, whatever. Off to study physics first. Homework later.
Omg, I spent the whole day playing viwawa. Rofl. But I'm very unlucky today. Oh, did I mention my wawa is naked and hairless? ):

(edited;7.19pm)
& Whether people are truly in love or not doesn't really concern you either. How would you be able to know if they're truly in love? Even if they're not, it doesn't make a difference because it's their choice and their lives they're wasting away, not yours. So people, no offence but please get a life and let others' live their own lives how they want it to be.

Plus, being a senior doesn't mean you're superior. Technically, I am in upper sec so I actually AM a senior. As someone said, respect is earned not demanded for. So yeah, spell loser with a capital L please.
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How nice it is to be a sec four. Yes, the irony of it that I'm saying this right after I said seniors are not superior. But I don't mean it in that way. I mean it's nice being a sec four cause.. well, life is good. Hahaha shall not elaborate.

Even if I leave you now
And it breaks my heart
Even if I'm not around
I won't give in, I can't give up on this love

Reached school like after 7.30am but it was wet weather so yeah didn't get booked.

Today I screwed up bio test because I left the question blank even though the answer I was thinking about was right? Cause I thought it was wrong and Ms Loy would laugh at it and really couldn't think of anything else. Then time's up already so I handed it in with the question blank. -.-

Me: Can I don't go for flag day since I have enough hours?
Ms Jesse Lim: Don't care la, don't go. Stay at home and revise your work.
Me: Must I tell the teacher in charge?
Her: Yeah, tell.
Me: Who is it?
Her: I also don't know leh.

So anyway not going. Have to fill in some slip.. parent's response and child's response to the chemistry grades so far. Like.. okaaay. How is my mum going to write so many lines, I have no idea. Oh, got back chemistry class test 3, which I got 9/30 for. Whatever. According to Jianlong, only 6 people passed. And of course that gay shit passed.

Went to gym with my cousins today. I think it's quite amazing, I ran 1.6km and did some cycling. Rofl! Cool right? Yala I have brainlag. I'm like still stuck in p6, still running 1.6km. But at least I ran without someone forcing me to, whoa! Someone said, "Do that more often and you'll have guys chasing you during 2.4, literally!" Hahaha!

Collecting my new spectacles tomorrow. And I need to finish some homework by tomorrow so I can spend Sunday studying for the physics test (chapt 4-6 and static electricity), a maths test (chapt 4) and chem skill 3 test on Monday.

And I don't see why you should be bitching about people who happen to be not so good in sports/running. (No, I don't mean me only.) They don't run fast. Then fine la. At least they're not obese or what. o_O Besides, people are good/interested in different things. Like how I prefer water sports to sports on well.. land. So I can only run fast for short distances and always cmi for 2.4. SO?!?!?!

Daring to insult others but not daring to tell them who you really are is just plain stupid and not to mention, cowardly. You hate people who are immature. What about yourself? What a total freak. If you're oh so mature, why don't you leave your name huh? Don't give stupid excuses like it makes no difference because they won't know me. That's bullshit.

Rofl, this song is good. I know the lyrics make it sound very bimbotic and yes, it is. But, it is still good. Yeaaah, I am feeling so great. Maybe because of the song, hmm. I, unlike you, am not so desperate/deprived. Okay, forget it, I will not mention why. And anyway, it sucks hearing people complaining about guides because we are slack or even some people who say other ccas are better when they're in guides. So we don't have PTs, so we don't do intense footdrill, so we hardly have to wear full-u. So what!!! You don't make an effort, you have no right to be freaking complaining. Okay okay, I believe I posted about this before. Just like what Rachel said (except now in my case), where else can you meet such wonderful people like me?! I went to sleep and wasted my whole afternoon. Never mind, it's time to go study bio. Sorry for this very disjointed post. This is what you get from a Cheryl who just woke up. Goodbye.

Now we're sitting in pairs. Don't know why MJL was in a seemingly good mood today. Chinese test was crappy.

Too bad I didn't go out with qin ai de today. Qin ai de has malay oral. Never mind! I look forward to Monday. :D

I think I'll go study bio. I really want to ace bio. Then I still have a lot of work to get done by tomorrow. Like a maths, chinese and SS. (I will probably never get them done though zzz)

But I will try, I will try.

I feel like eating people. Not literally, I am quite full.

ROAAAAAR!!!

I wish prelims would hurry and be over soon. Besides, I know I cmi already. So I don't care anymore. Just let it quickly come and go.

I don't want to go back to school. I hate school manzzz. Freak, I am going freaking mad.

You give me all this bullshit. And yala, in the end, it's all still about _.

2.4 was probably less tiring than climbing 6 floors of staircases after that. My timing sucked as usual. But heck. So I am not cut out for sports and my stamina sucks. Whatever?

Prepared for malay oral with Alethea after school then went for guides for 45 minutes or so because they were going to practice the horseshoe formation. Enrolment for sec ones and promotion for us next week. Yay. Then left and queued for malay oral. 409 was only allowed to start at 5pm.

Oral was a breeze. Perhaps because we already prepared dialogues for every chapter and simply needed to memorize it within the 5 minutes given to prepare for the conversation or perhaps because my sentences weren't very long.

Hopefully she gave us some bonus for being confident. After all, she asked if we wanted two more minutes to read through or to start straightaway. And we said we could start. Hahaha.

Saya makan awak. Awak mati.
I eat you. You die.
Hahahaha! Alamaaak.

A freak smiled at me. Rofl, life is daaaamn good.

Things to do by tomorrow,
1. Bio SPA skill 3
2. A maths 18.1, 18.2, ME18
3. Chem wb (metals)
4. English compre

School was boring. *Pushes the fastforward button*

Ate koba with Yanling and Ian at JE. Then went to camp at mac. The milo mcflurry is pretty good. Hahaha Yanling left soon after, leaving Ian and I. I was self-entertaining and amusing myself, as usual. Nothing much. Went for tuition after that.

Hmm. Malay oral tomorrow. Plus there's SS. And we're running 2.4. Damn it.

Midyears in 3 weeks.
Prelims in 4 months.
O's in 6 months.

I'm so dead. Freak. Not the least prepared. And still flunking everything. I miss sec two life, seriously. That was probably the year I studied not very much, but still.. the most. And I miss subjects like eng lit and art, where studying was unnecessary and could still pull my grades up. Plus art entertained us a lot, especially times where we shared with each other ideas/our prep work.

On the bright side, we probably won't have to go to school in October.

(edited;10.40pm)
I talk to Amanda Ang once in a pink moon. But it's good. We'll make pink moons be spotted more often. Xoxo, :D

1. At what age do you wish to be married?
Wo bu zhi dao. I don't care, yet.

2. If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 3 blog buddies you’d take and why?
Huh. Blog buddies? I'll take along.. Huishanny and Eckky cause they're entertaining and we can laugh a lot and camwhore like mad. Then I'll take along Amanda Ang too so we can talk about any random thing and sing emo songs (and seeing as she's so smart, she'll figure how to get away from that deserted island).

3. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
I want to go to the cable-ski park and try.

4. If you can have 1 dream come true, what would it be?
Improve in my studies.

5. Do you believe you can survive without money?
Obviously not.

6. What are you afraid to lose the most?
Perhaps, loved ones?

7. If you win $ 1 Million, what would you do?
I will start jumping around in excitement and go on an immediate shopping spree.

8. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
No, not directly anyway. Jokingly can la. :x I don't think girls should do that not because I am conservative. After all, the guy may not really love you and just accept your confession because they like to flirt and have nothing to lose. Right!!

9. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
I got this from Jiawen? Hmm. She's smart, hardworking and nice. (See, I am being nice. For once I didn't mention that you had no good points.)

10. What requirement do you wish from your other half?
Hmm, listing one only is hard. Understanding?

11. What kind of person do you hate the most?
I don't normally hate people. Of course, I do hate but yeah that's only if you offend/irritate me a lot.

12. If you are given the chance to go back to the past and make a difference, will you?
Make what difference. No, I don't want to go back to the past.

13. UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. What does it mean to you?
It's hard to find, but possible. Everyone has flaws. To really love someone, you have to accept their flaws and not simply overlook it. If you can't accept their flaws and overlook it time after time, it isn't love. At least, it wouldn't be lasting.

14. Any wisdom to share with your readers?
Er. Song lyrics are good to learn from. So you should keep reading my blog posts and learn from the lyrics. (No, I don't mean it all the time but I do most of the time :x)

15. If there’s ever a war(or things that are similar) happening in your place, are you going to move to a safer place, or fight?
No, I don't think I'll move because there are too many people I can't leave behind.

16. If you have the chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
Laziness.

17. Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?
I don't share all my problems with anyone. But for most.. Amanda Ang, Liangjie?

18. What’s your weakest point?
I can be too blunt at times and my mouth is often faster than my brain.

19. What’s the thing that you’re most proud of?
For now, that I'm a certified kayaker.

20. What is the one thing you regret most?
Letting my brain rot for the past three years and not bothering to mug like how I should be. I know I said I don't regret but this is different la.


Tied my hair and looked like a freaking twit today. Okay, I look like a twit everyday. Please just shut up. And I reached school very punctually. They started booking people after me. LOL.

PE was a lot of fun, it reminded me of primary school because I used to always play that. My group pwnzxzx.

Went to make new specs after school. I'm going to collect it end of this week.

Yup, nothing much already. There's geog and a math test tomorrow.

Besides, I am still peeved at the fact that I spent half an hour in school doing the maths question and still can't simplify it. You don't laugh at me. Neither could Craigven or Emelia. Pfffft.




Today is a happy Sunday. I woke up bright and early and was so high already. Okay, not very early. Pretty early seeing as I slept at.. 2 plus?

Ng Li'En Amanda is the love. My tees are here. Wooh. (See, I repay you!)
Hahahaha I know you want my kisses though. :D

Tomorrow is a bad day but nothing shall get Cheryl down. Be strongggg. :D

LOL!



I feel like going kayaking. No idea why I suddenly do but.. hey hey Amanda Ang, Caitlyn Lee, Wong Jamie! We were supposed to go together two years ago. I am certified okay, don't worry. Go with meeee.

And I seriously want to try waterski-ing. It isn't that expensive what. Aye, anyone wants to try?
I want to book a cable-ski park or something on my birthday. Need to check out the price. :D

I also want to try white water rafting overseas next time.

Hmm it must be the stress. I'm going crazy and wanting to do many crazy things. Lovely. Yes, I am scared of fish but water sports are fun kaaay. Since I can kayak, why can't I do other water sports huh? :D

Happy birthday, qin ai de Chu Hui Shan! :D
Thou shan't be very mushy because I may be typing here until tomorrow. Anyway, I'm sure you can feel my love for you right? Love you loads. Smile and be happy! :D
Now, I'll never be lonely. Look at what you've shown me. Never find a love like this.

Went to sunset way for lunch with Alethea, Yanling and Amanda after physics. Shared a giant pizza and chicken wings(4 each:x) at rocky's. Seriously, we're such pigs. Then we still went to scoops and shared ice cream with brownies.

I wish I could eat like Amanda. :x

Here is a nice song, for all of you out there to enjoy. Better in time, by Leona Lewis, from her album Spirit, which I highly recommend (though I don't have it, I'll get it when my wallet allows me to).


It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going, coming
Thought I heard a knock
Who's there, no one
Thinking that
I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know

You didn't notice
You mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'ma be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's going to hurt when it heals too, oh yeah
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really loved you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

How could I turn on the TV
Without something that would remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreamin
Don't want to let, hurt my feelings
But that's the past, I believe it
And I know that, time will heal it

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go so I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is
I will be fine without you
Yes, I will


我可以画一个圈
当作是完美句点
却不能停止想念
一幕幕甜美画面

Went swimming just now. Wore a giant tee and my sunglasses again. Lovely. :x
Yes, I know. Damn amazing that I finally moved my butt and did something more useful. Shut up.

Alethea thinks I am cute when I sing lollipop by MIKA. Rofl. You do okay. Don't deny it. I can have a super gay voice when I want to so yeah.

Life is good. School is cool. I don't have anything to complain about school today.

I have to memorize almost 8 books worth of crap for midyears (because less smart people like me don't really understand and can only rely on memorizing). My pea-sized brain can hardly contain it all. Why do they test everything anyway?! It's only midyears. Hello, I think I need some bird's nest. Any sponsors?

So few people really care. Sure, they stand by you at times but it doesn't mean they'll stay there. If you get my point. Who is going to understand what you're feeling? Hmm.

But to the people, who would willingly let me bite their heads off by talking to me, I really appreciate that. :D

You don't have to try to cover up truths that are bound to be exposed anyway.





Saturday, going to eat with Alethea and (maybe) Amanda Ng after physics remedial.
Thursday, out shopping with my qin ai de. :D

Other days, either I come home and sleep/do homework/try to mug. Or I have a test or tuition or CCA or something after school.

I like the way I are by Timbaland. (:

Have to go finish SEQs now. I don't really want to die yet, you see.
Never mind, forget I said that. And really, I am not that unfriendly lor. If you make an effort to be nice to me, I am nice to you. -.-





As usual, Cheryl was half-dead in the morning. Probably because she only remembered her guides project thing at 12am and switched on her computer again and spent a hell lot of time doing it.

So the day zoomed past.

Where is Amanda Ng Li'En!!! I can't wait to get stuff with her. :D

Okay. Then guides had some 'oral' test for the speaker badge. And had footdrill! Huishan & I took the sec threes. It was damn embarrassing since so many people were watching. But in a way, pretty fun.

Wo hen ai ni, Eckerene Wong Hway Yen and Chu Hui Shan. HAHAHA (:

Physics test tomorrow. I love a maths now. I love the fact I can complete homework myself, in not a very long time either.

I was so bored, I did a quiz on my Livejournal.



School was wonderful. Toodledeedoom, I'm in an unusually good mood. No, I am not kidding and you're not seeing things.

I was surprisingly early today. I mean, early as I hadn't even left my house at 7am.

We only had two lessons today, being physics and maths. This is perhaps, the only time this whole year we can slack the whole day. During physics, we had the most fun practical I ever had in my life. For physics, that is. Electricity was lovely. And I was so tempted to burn down the school.

I am going to be having my malay oral test with Alethea. LOLLOLLOL.

当时的煎熬 当时的心痛如绞
天终于亮了 遗憾终于退潮
终于能够恨不再疯
泪不再掉 心不跑
一定会有一个人 一段新的美好
我会找回当初对爱天真的霸道

Someone used to say I'm very 霸道. Hmm.

To someone, I don't know what you think of me now. Probably that I'm such a bitch. Sorry, and thanks for everything anyway. Too bad we won't even be keeping in contact already.
I am happy. And you are too. So that's it, I guess. What we were looking for.

I koped this from Hsiehhui because I am really addicted to this song.

假使不能公開妒忌
學習大方接受
同行時要殿後
誰冷落舊朋友
節日約我三位一體的慶祝
沿途明亮燈飾閃映著沉重
言談越熾熱
內在更冰凍

誰當初無心將兩方綴合
然後留低　只得這寂寞人
仍是你們密友　呆望你們熱吻
應該傷感還是快感

＊能迴避嘛　我怕了當那電燈膽
　黏著你們　來來回　委曲中受難
　一個我被撇低　卻又很不慣
　要走的一剎又折返
　能承認嘛
　我故意當那電燈膽
　他日你們完場時
　入替也不難
　善良人埋藏著最壞的心眼
　妄想一天你們會散
　會選我嗎＊

對換了你身份可應該滿足
情人還是知己都擁入懷抱
同情或眼淚　讓別個得到
留低的原因　一世的秘密
其實明知只得我是外人
仍是你們密友　呆望你們熱吻
應該開心還是痛

2.4 was damn screwed as usual, I think I will do the retest. Then again, that's if I feel like it? :/ Cause now I only can get a bronze for napfa. Hm. Muscle ache everywhere anyway. -.- Don't ask how come only my arms hurt and my legs don't after 2.4.

9.5/15 for geography class test because I identified the wrong forest and immediately got the whole question wrong (which was 4 marks). Lol.

19/25 for bio class test, which is damn screwed up because I threw away 3 marks (by leaving it blank). I thought it sounded damn stupid so yeah, but it turned out to be the right answer. Raaah.

Stayed back after school with Liangjie and Jamie at 411 to mug.

Left soon after to the airport since my cousin was arriving from HK.

So she brought back for me a lot of Jay concert merchandise. She went for the concert. Yup. Now I have like 8 files, 2 handphone straps (the pretty silver one too), 2 bags and a ring. They're all really pretty so you can be jealous.

Will post pictures tomorrow, or when I feel like it.

Siao liao la. I'm going to freaking screw up myes. I haven't really started studying and am still here now?? Wth. It's goodbye to Direct admission already.

Might be going to JJC open house for their talk on debate or something. I'm not going because I'm interested in going to JJC. I'm not at all. I just want to go for the debate. :D

Bye. Tomorrow's a holiday. (:

(edited;10.10pm)
Oh I think I forgot to mention that I was late today, again. Shit man. Though Evelyn was later than me today. She reached at a wonderful 8am. Perhaps this is the result of overindulgence in ben & jerry's. I'm going to owe so many hours of detention. K, I must refrain from cursing from now on. -.-
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I rotted the school day away. I was singing with Amanda and okay, I did read a little bit of geography. Ha.

After school was napfa 5 stations. Damn amazing, I was. 185cm for SBJ. HAHAHAHA!! Though I have come to a conclusion that SBJ should never be your last station if not you will just die. Or maybe it was because I did shuttle run 4 times and inclined pull-ups 3 times (with different teachers). I went to retry after everything and jumped 130cm, which is like wth okay. -.-

Okay la, I had a lot of help from Evelyn. I think I am damn pro! I can do the sitting down and stretching and don't know what thing to warm up my legs, and I always did it for fun, without knowing it's actually useful. Anyway, Evelyn's pretty good and quite motivating. Lol, I'll try your strategy tomorrow and hopefully do okay for 2.4km for once in my life. She thought me how to be able to stretch further too. Hmm. Thanks a lot, girl. Lots of love. :D

Then Evelyn and I chiong-ed to vivo in half an hour and went to queue for ben & jerry's. Rofl, free cone day!! And we queued twice. Half an hour for each cone. Lol! Major unglam and xiasuay-ness. I missed tuition so I'm going to make up on Sunday.

Btw, I thought I stepped down but I still have a campfire in June to attend. On the bright side, it's going to be at HCJC. Haha. I'm damn tired. And my right elbow hurts like crap wth.

Three cheers for today. The Ben & Jerry's free cone day. And also to the day that I jumped the furthest I have ever jumped in my whole entire life. Hip hip hooray.

K, bye. Just reached home and it's like 10 already. o_O

P.S. You know what? Life is screwed la. HCJC has a cutoff of 3 points while SAJC has a cutoff of 8 points. I want to go to a JC and join debate. If I can't make it to a good one though, I'm probably going to do mass communications in ngee ann. Lol! Sorry, I just like talking a lot. Imagine me hosting a talkshow or something. Like whoa, you get to talk for like hours!! :x

Basketbasketbasket. Damn pissed with myself. I have done nothing, at all, ever since I came home from school. And why am I so freaking distracted!!!!!

Napfa five stations tomorrow. 2.4 on Wednesday. Can't wait. -.-

Screw. (Caitlyn's future son's name)

Hmm, to end off with a nice song. Your love is a lie, by Simple Plan.

I fall asleep by the telephone
It's 2 o'clock and I'm waiting up alone
Tell me where have you been?

I found a note with another name
You blow a kiss, but it just don't feel the same
Cause I can feel that you're gone

I can't bite my tongue forever
While you try to play it cool
You can hide behind your stories
But don't take me for a fool

You can tell me that there's nobody else
(But I feel it)
You can tell me that you're home by yourself
(But I see it)
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want
But I know
Your love is just a lie
It's nothing but a lie

You look so innocent
But the guilt in your voice gives you away
Yeah you know what I mean
How does it feel when you kiss when you know that I trust you

And do you think about me when he f**ks you?
Could you be more obscene?

So dont try to say you're sorry
Or try to make it right
Don't waste your breath because it's too late, it's too late.

Paper 1 was screwed, for both languages.

"Practicing euthanasia is equivalent to murder." What is your opinion?
I saw that and was like wth?! Then I realized there was no more argumentative for me to write. So yeah, I wrote an expositary (however you spell it) and aiya screw la.

Spent lunch till end of school at 411. It was rather funny because I named my future son erm.. omg I can't remember how to spell his name! Laughed like crap. I studied with Caitlyn outside class. Okay fine, I was reading their history textbook so I didn't really study anything for the exams.

After school went back to class, did a bit of ss notes and left.

At the moment, my only friends are touchy and textbooks. Jiayou Cheryl, you can do it. Mug hard. There's only less then half a year left before it's goodbye, for real. Touchy believes in you, even if no one else does.

Same goes for everyone else. Good luck for myes. :D

The future holds so much more for us. (Lol, exactly what I wrote in the conclusion to my terribly screwed up essay.) So I cannot give up just yet. I will make it. I have to. :/

现在学着去遗忘 躲开有你的地方
回忆被谁放在书架上 把它从最高的地方落下
感动越是深刻 寂寞就越伤人
每个人的心里都会有一段伤恒

(edited;7.15pm)
I have this sudden crazy temptation to get my hair extensions nowwww. ):
Ha, bold and contrasting colours, come to me. One more month to go!
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Warning: Lesbian content. You are allowed to not scroll down and close this window. :D

People who couldn't sit still on the chairs. And the muggers who can actually sit still for long periods of time.Cheryl, Yanling, Evelyn, Amanda.Ruffles are going to find me to advertise for them.



Firstly, to the person whom I accidentally woke up in the middle of the night yesterday just because I was feeling horribly sucky and all.. I think we've drifted apart and we hardly talk nowadays. Nevertheless, I know I can still count on you. Hmm, thank you.

Next, Rachel says I'm good at hugs! Lollol. Then you should hug me more, love. :D

Okay, so I had a lot of fun at Sentosa today. Please do not ask what the hell I'm doing there when I have papers tomorrow and midyears are this week. The photos will do all the talking next time.

See you.

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF.

Basket, all the motivation has disappeared again.

I talk a lot, hope a lot and wish for a lot.
But it all comes down to nothing.

Argggghhhh, I hate being me.

Thanks to Raymond for the english formats.

For formal letter;

Sender's full name
Address

Date

Receiver's full name
Designation if any (Position)
Organisation Name if any
Address

Dear Sir/Mdm

Heading

Recommended minimum of 5 paragraphs

Yours faithfully/sincerely
Signature
Sender's name
Designation if any (Position)

For proposal;

Date

To:

Title

Body (Start by stating who you are and what you want to propose)

Thank you

Proposed by ____
Position

I am getting more and more confused by the format though. o_O

I like this song. :D

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起做梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动

我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手 最暖的胸口


我放手 我让座 假洒脱
谁懂我多么不舍得
太爱了 所以呢
没有哭 没有痛


Lol.

I've finished reading sec 3 ss. Going to do math and read some stuff for paper 1 on monday.

Still don't have the format for english proposal/formal letter and etc. Raah.

To my lovely darlings, besties and all. And of course, to the people who believe in me, which comes down to really few. I'm sure you will know who you are. Aye, basically this is for you if you've put up with me countless times. :D

你知道我多傻 在你面前从来不用逞强
听我说说话 让我靠一下
我们都是这样 想要幸福却都跌跌撞撞
可是不要怕 有我在身旁

能放心的哭一场 是再微笑的力量
只有你明白我的疯狂 不管故事有多长
世界对我太善良 这一路上有你
我变得坚强

让眼睛看不到 嫉妒的燃烧
让耳朵听不到 谎言的吵闹
在没有人相信 爱能永恒那一秒 我们正坚定的微笑

Indeed I am very motivated today. I am going to become a chao mugger and I must get at least 6A1s next year. Just you wait. :D

Ya ya I know everyone is laughing and no one really believes me, even my family. Whatever, please. -.-

After school, Amanda and I went SOMEWHERE. Hahaha.

Okay fine never mind, had a mugging session at skygarden with Evelyn, Amanda, Yanling, Jingwei, Yunian. Ordered pizza. Haha I realize they're all the 212 people. Ah anyway it was quite productive. Yunian, Jingwei and Amanda helped me with my physics and we did maths together.
We were pretty late for speech day, amazingly, seeing as we never left school in the first place.

Jocelyn bought for me subway cookies! :D

Speech day was rubbish. Lol. It seemed like we were the only class singing the school song damn loudly. I don't know. 409 had no one getting anything for cca or academic. But don't worry. We will have everyone coming back to get prizes next year! :D

Photos are with Evelyn and Rachel so I'll post them next time.

Zomg, hot pink fbts. They're so cute ok.

One look at you and I know what you’re thinking
Time’s a bitch and my heart is sinking down
You turn me inside out

I got a nice song yesterday, 電燈膽. It's in cantonese but it's nice ok. It's the first cantonese song that I think is very nice so yeah. You can go hear it and see the lyrics (in Chinese?) on Hsiehhui's blog. :D

The morning was like o_O Imagine if guides and bb were all caught. Rofl.

Assembly was boring. Zaogeng-ing in front of the whole upper sec. Hmm. Won't you feel naked wearing skirts without shorts?!?! Okay anyway, why waste so much time on your appearance for a 'skit' that was barely 5 minutes. Lol.

Hello sunshine, love!! ♥♥♥

Left halfway through chinese remedial with Jocelyn and Ian because it seemed to be dragging on forever. Went home with Jocelyn, Ian and Yuanting. Maybe staying around this area isn't that bad after all. Subway subway! Hmm.

Off to do bio workbook already. Hopefully, get some studying done too.

(edited;9.23pm)
9.5/25 for physics revision test is like whoa. I'm gna screw up midyears like asdf. Let me pass everything plssss. On the bright side, I've completed my bio workbook. And omg omg omg, ben & jerry's free cone day!!! *hyperventilates* Wooh, they're the best ice cream you can ever have in your lifetime or two.
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Take me on the floor
I can't take it anymore
I want you I want you I want you to show me love

I am amazing. I have been late everyday this damn week. -.-

And I really, really want to/must get a prize for next year's speech day because I haven't gotten any at all, after so many years. Rofl, don't tell me to dream on. Just shut up.

"Huh not boring meh? You mean you sit there for two hours and watch people getting prizes?"
"Ha okay. Next year I get prize then you can see me and won't be bored already."

Left handers have a shorter lifespan than the average right hander by like seven or nine years. Yet, Eckerene and Huishan tried to shorten my already short lifespan by drawing all over my arms. Literally all over. Each drop of ink actually shortens your life by a few seconds. It's murder, indirectly. Okay okay, so I started it. Whateverzxzx. Very fun though. I wrote on Eckerene's leg as well. Hahaha!

If only we could really try out the teachers exchange program for a week or something. :/

K. Need. To. Finish. Homework.

(edited;9.22pm)
Finally done with bio skill 3 and finished up most of the CSS chem paper. Perhaps being offline helps a lot more than I thought it would. Hmm. I came online to print physics notes.
Everything is so contradicting. And my darlings, hate is no good. Indifference. :D
Lol, basket. I can't be late tomorrow already. If not I'm seriously going to get it manzzz.
BUT, HAHAHA OMG DAMN CUTE. :D

Love me or hate me, it's still an obsession.
Love me or hate me, that is the question.
If you love me, then thank you.
If you hate me, then f you.

(/edit)

I passed physics revision test 1. 18/33. Not bad already okay. Seeing as I got only 1 mark for the mcq and I got almost all the questions that involved explaining wrong, including the one asking for definition. Only that my calculations were all right. -.-

School was productive. Surprise, surprise. I finished my zuo wen in school. The one I didn't do yesterday because I was completely bummed out and in no mood to do anything. And I also did half of the geog homework. Pigs can fly. (hahaha Ashleigh, not funny.)

Hmm, I have about one and a half hour before I need to go for tuition. I hope I can do something since my mood definitely isn't as rotten as it was yesterday.

One more thing. I was late, again, today. Zzz.

Please don't put words in my mouth. I really don't wish to push the blame around. I believe this doesn't concern anyone else and I have forgotten all about it already. Leave me alone instead of acting like you know me oh just too well, thank you. Don't worry, I'm not pissed. Tokihanatsu~

(edited;9.08pm)
Raaah, I'm never going to survive through this year. I should just go mug like hell till I die of stress or something. How lovely, isn't it?
(/edit)

Kore ijou ittemo shou ga nai.

Con amore,

Reached school late today. Got the pink form but I can keep it as a souvenir since I have a valid excuse. Teehee. I am damn good ok, really.

I think bio prac was amazing. I was one of the few (if not the only) who got positive results for benedict's test. Of course, that may be wrong but.. don't knowww.

Chem test was crap. I mean, she didn't even mark.
The a maths test on trigo we got back was even more crap. I got like 3/20.
Physics test was worse. I converted nothing at all. -.-

On the bright side, enrichment was like free period. And it was spent being gay. Sat outside half the time. Me eyeing some pretty girl. A lot of group hugs. Etc etc.

Now, I shall do the stupid zuo wen that everyone did on thursday but I wasn't in school so.. D:

You know what? Just screw school. I still haven't started studying when midyears are a week away and have no mood at all to start. I give up. I really, really give up. I won't make it anyway.

没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走掉
Sorry, I've been a bitch. It's too late. I took too long to realize but now that I have, I'm sorry.

So the funeral, cremation and all is over already. Anyway, I think my grandmother will be in a better place than this lousy Earth now and she'll probably be happier there.

Ate at crystal jade and anderson's with my relatives. My cousins and I sat at a table by ourselves, without the adults. Everyone got one dish and yeah, spent quite a lot.

(edited;9.43pm)
Lol omg, I just found out from Joyce that the bill was $812 and the service charge plus gst was like $120. Wth. o_O
(/edit)


I think the photo with buddy where we both aren't looking at the camera is rather cute. It's nicer than the photo that we were both looking at the camera. Rofl,

Hmm, I need to study for physics test. Zzz.

Did I mention I failed chem metals test? Jesse marked it in front of me. -.-

I just found out there's physics test on Monday. Seeing as I will not be free tomorrow, it probably means less viwawa today because I have to start studying. Hmm.

Anyway, yesterday was pretty fun. Yes, I was at the wake. But we were playing mahjong. Lol! I think I suck. I really need to train more online first.

(edited;11.51pm)
Oh ya. I am very sad that I can't wear the size 29 black hot shorts I bought. It's really pretty. Same cutting as nf but the brand isn't nf. Anyway, it's too big so yeah. I'ma get newfuture hot shorts and pink fbts. Lol!

I'm blogging on iPod touch now. Hmm so I'll make this post as short as possible. Then I'll post again when I get back home which may be tomorrow.

Had no lessons at all today and we camped at the gate because we couldn't leave till 11. 409 was like the first class and we counted down at the gate. Super funny k.

Class lunch at pizza hut was fine. My table was scary. Hahah we got main courses each and shared a pizza. We still had soup and all.
Must be because we had alethea there. Ha ok kiddingzzz, love you girl.

Sports day was really fun though we only got to cheer for 3 events. LOL.
Damien is damn bimbo one ok! He took bimbo photos with me luh.
And 409 was like so high. We were pretty exaggerating la. But we were really loud and high and were throwing many people in the air, even Ms Lim. Hahaha. Ran one round together too. I think we can go be cheerleaders manzzz.

409 is the best :D
love love y'all. And cheers to everyone who ran for heats and today. Grats damien and huiqin for winning too :D

Kay, bye. Touchy is dying.

Rather than to be woefully ignorant.

Just so you know, I don't argue with everyone and anyone okay. If you are nice to me, I will be nice to you too. So yeah.

I am aware this is my third post today. Hmm, okaaay. Going to study metals. Bye.

(edited;12.05am)
Oh hello, it's Friday. I can't wait for class lunch @ pizza hut tomorrow and sports day. I really, really want to eat. We reserved seats (409 & 410) already so don't even think about disturbing us. Okay, I'll shut up now.

(edited;12.32am)
I feel like wearing lime fbts tomorrow! I know I will look like a crazy freak (which I am) so I won't be wearing it, I guess. Pfft.

I don't think I'm going to school tomorrow. Or rather, today, since it's past midnight already.
Actually, I might but probably not la. Okay, bye.


I am still very, very tired but I have to leave the house to go to the.. wake? I don't know what's it called. Anyway yeah I'll be doing that this whole week. I'll probably reach home (my mum says) around 12.

Surprise, surprise. 409 didn't get A for cleanliness and we were made to stay back in the hall. Now, we're supposed to be remorseful and pick up litter in the canteen after recess, after lunch and stuff. Rofl. She's very amusing.

Bio was funny, as usual. Seeing as we're still at sexual reproduction.

Ran 2.4. I think I ran less than last week yet I seemed to either maintain/improve the timing a little bit. I barely even ran today. o_O

SS was pretty funny. We suggested a teachers exchange program to Ms Sathi. And we're not going to wear corrective work order (CWO) shirts, we're going to be wearing NGA. Never Get A. Lollollol.

Maths and Chinese were the usual, boring. Mr Chia was crazy when he came to class. Hmm.

Had guides after school. I think next week is the sec fours' last meeting. Yes, I know you all will miss me. Right, Vanessa and Sheryl?! :D

Please don't be a loser and try to blame me/my friends for your own inability to do well. Don't bullshit that people are biased and make it my/my friend's fault. Because it isn't. Things don't always go your way. Besides, these stuff are based on much more than just one person.

Be a man. Do the right thing, man. -.-


I just came home from NUH. My grandmother passed away today so yup. Pretty tiring since I cabbed there right after tuition and haven't started on homework or anything.

You don't have to worry though, I'm still going to school. Only have to miss physics remedial on Saturday because of the funeral, I guess.

Hmm. The voltage I calculated for physics was even more than the battery could supply but whatever. I don't think I did anything wrong, somehow.

I think I'll go do SS now. Damn stressed. I won't have time to be doing homework or studying for the next few days. As in, seriously no time. Freak.

Au revoir.

School was demoralizing. Typical.

I think you are a very ugly annoying thing and should really just get a life and stop being a noisy twit.

I'm sure I flunked today's physics test since I could hardly do anything. And I left a lot of blanks.

It's okay. I will go mug with qin ai de at kap on weekends. I'm sure we're much smarter than _, just that we're lazy. We can do it de okay. Love you! :D
Pls don't get the wrong idea. :D

And I have wonderfully amazing besties like Amanda Ang Qi Qi and Caleb Lim Liang Jie. Lol! I was lazy to bring my chem text and I just asked them if they had it in school. Both of them offered to bring for me. So nice of them right! I bet you're fuming with jealousy because you don't have besties like them. I know I am such a lucky girl. Hahaha thanks a lot, besties! :D

Walked to the bus stop with two more darlings today, Huishan and Eckerene.

Then waited for the bus for half an hour with qin ai de. In point form, we alighted at the wrong stop. Transferred money for Yanling and myself. Walked around. Ate at taka basement. Got lost. Walked round and round Orchard. Finally arrived at far east plaza. Tried nf shorts. Walked around to find shorts etc etc.

I'm very happy I'm not as fat as I thought I was. And the nf hot shorts aren't very short on me so yeah I think I'm getting some online at $16 a pair, rather than $29.90 at the store at far east. Yup.

Took 700 home. Surprisingly, there was no jam. So I arrived home slightly wet but still reasonably early. At least it was only around 6.30?

Kay, bye. I am happy happy happy!!!! :D

Aiya basketttttt. :(

I feel very, very drained and am losing motivation already. I don't feel like studying physics nor finishing homework.

What do you truly know about me?

And I'm so tired. I'm not your toy, for you to talk to when you feel like it and for you to throw away when you have other things to do. Yeah, they were always all right.

I believed, one too many times. False hopes, sheesh.

I'm so sad. There's no more camps for me to go to probably until JC orientation (if I even go to a JC anyway). I'd had so much fun during guides camp and sec 3 camp last year. Pfft.

Neber mindzz. My customized little miss notebook, forever21 sunglasses and pullover, bags from PG spree (long ago), skirts from spree (long ago) should be leaping into my arms soon, I think. Haha can't wait for the sunglasses and bags especially.

I want more bags more bags more bags. Sorely tempted to buy now then they'll arrive during June or something. Just the right time to change bags. Excuses, lol.

Okay, I haven't finished any homework. But I'm proud to say I've started on chem skill 3. Tch, whatever. Off to study physics first. Homework later.
Omg, I spent the whole day playing viwawa. Rofl. But I'm very unlucky today. Oh, did I mention my wawa is naked and hairless? ):

(edited;7.19pm)
& Whether people are truly in love or not doesn't really concern you either. How would you be able to know if they're truly in love? Even if they're not, it doesn't make a difference because it's their choice and their lives they're wasting away, not yours. So people, no offence but please get a life and let others' live their own lives how they want it to be.

Plus, being a senior doesn't mean you're superior. Technically, I am in upper sec so I actually AM a senior. As someone said, respect is earned not demanded for. So yeah, spell loser with a capital L please.
(/edit)

How nice it is to be a sec four. Yes, the irony of it that I'm saying this right after I said seniors are not superior. But I don't mean it in that way. I mean it's nice being a sec four cause.. well, life is good. Hahaha shall not elaborate.

Even if I leave you now
And it breaks my heart
Even if I'm not around
I won't give in, I can't give up on this love

Reached school like after 7.30am but it was wet weather so yeah didn't get booked.

Today I screwed up bio test because I left the question blank even though the answer I was thinking about was right? Cause I thought it was wrong and Ms Loy would laugh at it and really couldn't think of anything else. Then time's up already so I handed it in with the question blank. -.-

Me: Can I don't go for flag day since I have enough hours?
Ms Jesse Lim: Don't care la, don't go. Stay at home and revise your work.
Me: Must I tell the teacher in charge?
Her: Yeah, tell.
Me: Who is it?
Her: I also don't know leh.

So anyway not going. Have to fill in some slip.. parent's response and child's response to the chemistry grades so far. Like.. okaaay. How is my mum going to write so many lines, I have no idea. Oh, got back chemistry class test 3, which I got 9/30 for. Whatever. According to Jianlong, only 6 people passed. And of course that gay shit passed.

Went to gym with my cousins today. I think it's quite amazing, I ran 1.6km and did some cycling. Rofl! Cool right? Yala I have brainlag. I'm like still stuck in p6, still running 1.6km. But at least I ran without someone forcing me to, whoa! Someone said, "Do that more often and you'll have guys chasing you during 2.4, literally!" Hahaha!

Collecting my new spectacles tomorrow. And I need to finish some homework by tomorrow so I can spend Sunday studying for the physics test (chapt 4-6 and static electricity), a maths test (chapt 4) and chem skill 3 test on Monday.

And I don't see why you should be bitching about people who happen to be not so good in sports/running. (No, I don't mean me only.) They don't run fast. Then fine la. At least they're not obese or what. o_O Besides, people are good/interested in different things. Like how I prefer water sports to sports on well.. land. So I can only run fast for short distances and always cmi for 2.4. SO?!?!?!

Daring to insult others but not daring to tell them who you really are is just plain stupid and not to mention, cowardly. You hate people who are immature. What about yourself? What a total freak. If you're oh so mature, why don't you leave your name huh? Don't give stupid excuses like it makes no difference because they won't know me. That's bullshit.

Rofl, this song is good. I know the lyrics make it sound very bimbotic and yes, it is. But, it is still good. Yeaaah, I am feeling so great. Maybe because of the song, hmm. I, unlike you, am not so desperate/deprived. Okay, forget it, I will not mention why. And anyway, it sucks hearing people complaining about guides because we are slack or even some people who say other ccas are better when they're in guides. So we don't have PTs, so we don't do intense footdrill, so we hardly have to wear full-u. So what!!! You don't make an effort, you have no right to be freaking complaining. Okay okay, I believe I posted about this before. Just like what Rachel said (except now in my case), where else can you meet such wonderful people like me?! I went to sleep and wasted my whole afternoon. Never mind, it's time to go study bio. Sorry for this very disjointed post. This is what you get from a Cheryl who just woke up. Goodbye.

Now we're sitting in pairs. Don't know why MJL was in a seemingly good mood today. Chinese test was crappy.

Too bad I didn't go out with qin ai de today. Qin ai de has malay oral. Never mind! I look forward to Monday. :D

I think I'll go study bio. I really want to ace bio. Then I still have a lot of work to get done by tomorrow. Like a maths, chinese and SS. (I will probably never get them done though zzz)

But I will try, I will try.

I feel like eating people. Not literally, I am quite full.

ROAAAAAR!!!

I wish prelims would hurry and be over soon. Besides, I know I cmi already. So I don't care anymore. Just let it quickly come and go.

I don't want to go back to school. I hate school manzzz. Freak, I am going freaking mad.

You give me all this bullshit. And yala, in the end, it's all still about _.

2.4 was probably less tiring than climbing 6 floors of staircases after that. My timing sucked as usual. But heck. So I am not cut out for sports and my stamina sucks. Whatever?

Prepared for malay oral with Alethea after school then went for guides for 45 minutes or so because they were going to practice the horseshoe formation. Enrolment for sec ones and promotion for us next week. Yay. Then left and queued for malay oral. 409 was only allowed to start at 5pm.

Oral was a breeze. Perhaps because we already prepared dialogues for every chapter and simply needed to memorize it within the 5 minutes given to prepare for the conversation or perhaps because my sentences weren't very long.

Hopefully she gave us some bonus for being confident. After all, she asked if we wanted two more minutes to read through or to start straightaway. And we said we could start. Hahaha.

Saya makan awak. Awak mati.
I eat you. You die.
Hahahaha! Alamaaak.

A freak smiled at me. Rofl, life is daaaamn good.

Things to do by tomorrow,
1. Bio SPA skill 3
2. A maths 18.1, 18.2, ME18
3. Chem wb (metals)
4. English compre

School was boring. *Pushes the fastforward button*

Ate koba with Yanling and Ian at JE. Then went to camp at mac. The milo mcflurry is pretty good. Hahaha Yanling left soon after, leaving Ian and I. I was self-entertaining and amusing myself, as usual. Nothing much. Went for tuition after that.

Hmm. Malay oral tomorrow. Plus there's SS. And we're running 2.4. Damn it.

Midyears in 3 weeks.
Prelims in 4 months.
O's in 6 months.

I'm so dead. Freak. Not the least prepared. And still flunking everything. I miss sec two life, seriously. That was probably the year I studied not very much, but still.. the most. And I miss subjects like eng lit and art, where studying was unnecessary and could still pull my grades up. Plus art entertained us a lot, especially times where we shared with each other ideas/our prep work.

On the bright side, we probably won't have to go to school in October.

(edited;10.40pm)
I talk to Amanda Ang once in a pink moon. But it's good. We'll make pink moons be spotted more often. Xoxo, :D

1. At what age do you wish to be married?
Wo bu zhi dao. I don't care, yet.

2. If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 3 blog buddies you’d take and why?
Huh. Blog buddies? I'll take along.. Huishanny and Eckky cause they're entertaining and we can laugh a lot and camwhore like mad. Then I'll take along Amanda Ang too so we can talk about any random thing and sing emo songs (and seeing as she's so smart, she'll figure how to get away from that deserted island).

3. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
I want to go to the cable-ski park and try.

4. If you can have 1 dream come true, what would it be?
Improve in my studies.

5. Do you believe you can survive without money?
Obviously not.

6. What are you afraid to lose the most?
Perhaps, loved ones?

7. If you win $ 1 Million, what would you do?
I will start jumping around in excitement and go on an immediate shopping spree.

8. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
No, not directly anyway. Jokingly can la. :x I don't think girls should do that not because I am conservative. After all, the guy may not really love you and just accept your confession because they like to flirt and have nothing to lose. Right!!

9. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
I got this from Jiawen? Hmm. She's smart, hardworking and nice. (See, I am being nice. For once I didn't mention that you had no good points.)

10. What requirement do you wish from your other half?
Hmm, listing one only is hard. Understanding?

11. What kind of person do you hate the most?
I don't normally hate people. Of course, I do hate but yeah that's only if you offend/irritate me a lot.

12. If you are given the chance to go back to the past and make a difference, will you?
Make what difference. No, I don't want to go back to the past.

13. UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. What does it mean to you?
It's hard to find, but possible. Everyone has flaws. To really love someone, you have to accept their flaws and not simply overlook it. If you can't accept their flaws and overlook it time after time, it isn't love. At least, it wouldn't be lasting.

14. Any wisdom to share with your readers?
Er. Song lyrics are good to learn from. So you should keep reading my blog posts and learn from the lyrics. (No, I don't mean it all the time but I do most of the time :x)

15. If there’s ever a war(or things that are similar) happening in your place, are you going to move to a safer place, or fight?
No, I don't think I'll move because there are too many people I can't leave behind.

16. If you have the chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
Laziness.

17. Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?
I don't share all my problems with anyone. But for most.. Amanda Ang, Liangjie?

18. What’s your weakest point?
I can be too blunt at times and my mouth is often faster than my brain.

19. What’s the thing that you’re most proud of?
For now, that I'm a certified kayaker.

20. What is the one thing you regret most?
Letting my brain rot for the past three years and not bothering to mug like how I should be. I know I said I don't regret but this is different la.


Tied my hair and looked like a freaking twit today. Okay, I look like a twit everyday. Please just shut up. And I reached school very punctually. They started booking people after me. LOL.

PE was a lot of fun, it reminded me of primary school because I used to always play that. My group pwnzxzx.

Went to make new specs after school. I'm going to collect it end of this week.

Yup, nothing much already. There's geog and a math test tomorrow.

Besides, I am still peeved at the fact that I spent half an hour in school doing the maths question and still can't simplify it. You don't laugh at me. Neither could Craigven or Emelia. Pfffft.




Today is a happy Sunday. I woke up bright and early and was so high already. Okay, not very early. Pretty early seeing as I slept at.. 2 plus?

Ng Li'En Amanda is the love. My tees are here. Wooh. (See, I repay you!)
Hahahaha I know you want my kisses though. :D

Tomorrow is a bad day but nothing shall get Cheryl down. Be strongggg. :D

LOL!



I feel like going kayaking. No idea why I suddenly do but.. hey hey Amanda Ang, Caitlyn Lee, Wong Jamie! We were supposed to go together two years ago. I am certified okay, don't worry. Go with meeee.

And I seriously want to try waterski-ing. It isn't that expensive what. Aye, anyone wants to try?
I want to book a cable-ski park or something on my birthday. Need to check out the price. :D

I also want to try white water rafting overseas next time.

Hmm it must be the stress. I'm going crazy and wanting to do many crazy things. Lovely. Yes, I am scared of fish but water sports are fun kaaay. Since I can kayak, why can't I do other water sports huh? :D

Happy birthday, qin ai de Chu Hui Shan! :D
Thou shan't be very mushy because I may be typing here until tomorrow. Anyway, I'm sure you can feel my love for you right? Love you loads. Smile and be happy! :D
Now, I'll never be lonely. Look at what you've shown me. Never find a love like this.

Went to sunset way for lunch with Alethea, Yanling and Amanda after physics. Shared a giant pizza and chicken wings(4 each:x) at rocky's. Seriously, we're such pigs. Then we still went to scoops and shared ice cream with brownies.

I wish I could eat like Amanda. :x

Here is a nice song, for all of you out there to enjoy. Better in time, by Leona Lewis, from her album Spirit, which I highly recommend (though I don't have it, I'll get it when my wallet allows me to).


It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going, coming
Thought I heard a knock
Who's there, no one
Thinking that
I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know

You didn't notice
You mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'ma be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's going to hurt when it heals too, oh yeah
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really loved you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

How could I turn on the TV
Without something that would remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreamin
Don't want to let, hurt my feelings
But that's the past, I believe it
And I know that, time will heal it

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go so I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is
I will be fine without you
Yes, I will


我可以画一个圈
当作是完美句点
却不能停止想念
一幕幕甜美画面

Went swimming just now. Wore a giant tee and my sunglasses again. Lovely. :x
Yes, I know. Damn amazing that I finally moved my butt and did something more useful. Shut up.

Alethea thinks I am cute when I sing lollipop by MIKA. Rofl. You do okay. Don't deny it. I can have a super gay voice when I want to so yeah.

Life is good. School is cool. I don't have anything to complain about school today.

I have to memorize almost 8 books worth of crap for midyears (because less smart people like me don't really understand and can only rely on memorizing). My pea-sized brain can hardly contain it all. Why do they test everything anyway?! It's only midyears. Hello, I think I need some bird's nest. Any sponsors?

So few people really care. Sure, they stand by you at times but it doesn't mean they'll stay there. If you get my point. Who is going to understand what you're feeling? Hmm.

But to the people, who would willingly let me bite their heads off by talking to me, I really appreciate that. :D

You don't have to try to cover up truths that are bound to be exposed anyway.





Saturday, going to eat with Alethea and (maybe) Amanda Ng after physics remedial.
Thursday, out shopping with my qin ai de. :D

Other days, either I come home and sleep/do homework/try to mug. Or I have a test or tuition or CCA or something after school.

I like the way I are by Timbaland. (:

Have to go finish SEQs now. I don't really want to die yet, you see.
Never mind, forget I said that. And really, I am not that unfriendly lor. If you make an effort to be nice to me, I am nice to you. -.-





As usual, Cheryl was half-dead in the morning. Probably because she only remembered her guides project thing at 12am and switched on her computer again and spent a hell lot of time doing it.

So the day zoomed past.

Where is Amanda Ng Li'En!!! I can't wait to get stuff with her. :D

Okay. Then guides had some 'oral' test for the speaker badge. And had footdrill! Huishan & I took the sec threes. It was damn embarrassing since so many people were watching. But in a way, pretty fun.

Wo hen ai ni, Eckerene Wong Hway Yen and Chu Hui Shan. HAHAHA (:

Physics test tomorrow. I love a maths now. I love the fact I can complete homework myself, in not a very long time either.

I was so bored, I did a quiz on my Livejournal.



School was wonderful. Toodledeedoom, I'm in an unusually good mood. No, I am not kidding and you're not seeing things.

I was surprisingly early today. I mean, early as I hadn't even left my house at 7am.

We only had two lessons today, being physics and maths. This is perhaps, the only time this whole year we can slack the whole day. During physics, we had the most fun practical I ever had in my life. For physics, that is. Electricity was lovely. And I was so tempted to burn down the school.

I am going to be having my malay oral test with Alethea. LOLLOLLOL.

当时的煎熬 当时的心痛如绞
天终于亮了 遗憾终于退潮
终于能够恨不再疯
泪不再掉 心不跑
一定会有一个人 一段新的美好
我会找回当初对爱天真的霸道

Someone used to say I'm very 霸道. Hmm.

To someone, I don't know what you think of me now. Probably that I'm such a bitch. Sorry, and thanks for everything anyway. Too bad we won't even be keeping in contact already.
I am happy. And you are too. So that's it, I guess. What we were looking for.