Wo hen bu shuang la tmd.

Anyway, I don't feel like talking much about school, as usual. Just that I screwed up chem test because I didn't study AT ALL. Jesse's so going to catfight me. Raah. I'm dying of a splitting headache now. And there isn't anything memorable or whatever so yeah.

I'm pretty happy with myself though. I've been reaching school almost late (like today I stepped into the parade square just before the national anthem started) everyday but I've only been late once for this year.

YOU ARE THE WORLD TO ME

...

...

...

BUT I AM YOUR SUN.

So basically, you revolve around me yet you're not really my problem. Okay okay, I know I am damn funny. I was being random and ended up with that line. Went around telling people. Rofl!

Heats were pretty cool. I was the start IC. LOL, damn stupid. At least I had Vanessa to talk to.
Grab grab interesting people. :x

And please arh. Stare simi sai man. I know you are so deprived and never see pretty girl like me before but still, exercise self control can?! I'll smack your boobs if you have any in the first place. Ugh. Your face is so fugly still act what sehzzz.

Yeah, sorry. I'm getting more explicit each day, and many people tell me so. -.-

(To some people wearing starbucks tees)
So you're walking around with a topless woman on your shirt.
Then people tell you that and you go "Ohmygod, really! I never noticed!"
Tch such bimbos.

At least, I'm accepting it the way it is now.
And when things can't get any worse, it can only get better. So cheer up, people. :D

Midyears are around the corner. And if I screw things up, it shows that four years of my life has just gone to waste. Time to wake up. All the best, girl.

Anyone wants to have study sessions or something with me regularly or something?

You think you deserve it.
You want it all right now, your way.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
CYNTHIA WEE! :D
Lots of love! & I miss all the ranting with you. We haven't been doing that! Hahaha!

I'm sorry I don't buy presents unless someone shares with me because I always don't know what to get and have no time to anyway. So yeah. Sorry to many many people.
But I'll give you my love! :D

Back from the hospital. I wore my sunglasses and hot pink HOHinspi tee today. So cool kkk.

Hmm. I have quite a lot to do now. My calculator is dead. And uh.. okay, bye.

The opposite of love isn't hate, it's indifference.
If you hate me, it means you still care.
Yes, I care.

Flames to dust, lovers to friends.
Why do all good things come to an end?

Physics remedial today.

After that went to ACJC with Waner, Yanling and Alethea. It was freaking hot and I saw many people. Many seniors whom I never knew were in AC. Hahah.

The prizes were like o_O!!

KAP-ed after that with Waner and Yanling. I was really quiet for a while but eventually, we couldn't stop talking about so many things. Hard to believe that though we were in the same class since sec 1, I never really talked to Waner much until sec three.

And Yanling is very mean! She disturbs me on msn while doing her work. So she gets everything done while I get nothing done. :x

Oh did I mention my shoelaces were hot pink? Damn striking la k. I'll post a picture later.

Life is good with so many wonderful people around me. :D

Heats on monday. Woohooo.

Btw, I'm sorry if I appear really mean. But yeah, rather than talking behind people's backs, might as well be direct. So there.

为什么只剩下我

Baaah. I am shivering like crap. I hope I'm not going to be sick because I just ate cups of ben&jerry's and it's 1am now. I think I shall go sleep.

I feel sad. Why why why??? I don't know. I think I'm going crazy.

Somehow, I tend to feel like that when it's too late at night. o_O *claws myself*

Ashita wa kyou yori mo Tomorrow will be even better than today
Dakara daijoubu So I'm okay

Shiawase ni narou Let's be happy

P.S. You can highlight to see the translation. Rofl. Yes, I know it's so pointless. Whatever.

没有你我发现自己 无法感受
需要你的时候 能不能勇敢说爱

Jesse was really funny in class. The world is coming to an end. So we all don't need to study anymore. And the world's economy will suffer in a few years. It'll be safer if you're still in school. Therefore, we should all fail O's and be retained. Hmm?

I did quite badly for bio revision test. 16/27. o_O
Bio is my consistent A1. Raaaarh.

To queensway after school to settle some printing. Then I got my lime fbts.

Then off to taka and I exchanged my tka book for two other books (2nd part of Koizora and dolphin bay novel) because there was a tear in it. Rofl! I'm a genius, please. I finished reading it already anyway. :x

Bloody malay test to do online later. And I need to know how to say "I don't know" in malay so I can just keep repeating that during the oral test. LOLLL. Someone teach me ok.

I keep forgetting what I want to blog about!!!!!

ACJC fun-o-rama thing tomorrow after physics remedial. Whoopie.

(edited;10.07pm)
Malay quiz was crap. I got 12/15 the first time. With a lot of help from Jinguan and some from Jianlong, 14.5/15 for the next two tries. Hahaha, thanks!

Some stupid bastard annoys me. Tssssk. Luckily, it's the weekend.

Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"

Anyway, because of the outburst of vulgarities, I didn't meantion how much I love guides right?

"Love guides with a kiss"
Rofl. Love the sec fours a lot. Twisted is our new word. Hahaha! How can I possibly not be entertained by them all? Especially Wenhui who is either a parallelogram (straight yet slanted) or a triangle (straight with three pointed edges). Hahahaha!

Okay, today.

Mr Chia is so discriminating. He split us into four groups to practice differentiation (with different exercises). And my group was all those who failed a maths common test. o_O

Erm. Too bad for chia though. I am an expert in differentiation and way ahead of him so yeah. Ashleigh and I were finishing the exercise while he was still introducing differentiation to us. Nehneh! I was helping people too lor.

Wobble your fats.

Jesse is damn funny la. "I know you all like bread. Who knows maybe next time you go to breadtalk can get one free bread?"

Jocelyn's japanese textbook is so cool, I may be getting the sec 1 jap textbook.

Teachers all go zoom zoom zoom like a bullet train. I think someone should put a NO SPEEDING sign in our classroom.

And Alelele, I apologize for hogging your dvds. I'll watch this weekend.

Lastly, I failed my chem redox test. It seriously makes me wonder where I'll end up at a year from now..

Hmm.



The type of guy who doesn't see
What he has until she leaves

I wish Jiang Zhi Shu was my boyfriend manzxzx. I know he's fictional. Hmm, I want my boyfriend to be someone like that then.

Okay, having an iq of 200 is impossible. It's alright. I don't expect that of my future boyfriend. 150 is enough!

HAHAHA. And he must be very dao yet very sweet like Zhi Shu.

Hopefully, he can play basketball well too. :D

Did I mention he must be handsome? (to me.) I don't give a damn if others think he's not handsome. Hoho.

Eh and don't be so tall. I am quite short, you see.


This post is crappy. I apologize. I just felt like fa hua chi-ing. :D

This is how it feels
When you wait for a call that never comes
Are you waking up cause you miss someone?

My memory is failing me again. I can't remember anything that happened today except bio SPA and after that.

I was freaking panicking like wth. Kept dropping the _. Teacher kept staring at me. And I was holding the boiling tube with my bare hands until the teacher reminded me I could kiap it. -.-Blaaah whatever.

(edit;11.29pm)
My calculator died on me twice too. I was completely going crazy la. It's not like it had no battery. The numbers just kept fading off the screen. I stabbed it for a good few minutes before it finally became normal. Ugh.
(/edit)

Thankfully, the bunsen burner was very cooperative. I lit it successfully many times and I wanted to keep lighting it with the spare time. Yes, I am damn weird. Shut up.

Central-ed with a lot of people. Ianthedodo forgot to return class keys so he went back to school.

Went to JE with Audrey.

Ian came to find me to get my SS things. Then I went for tuition.

End of day. Bye.

If I'm happy in your hands,
I'm unusually hard to hold on to.

Today was the usual. Let's skip to after school because school was shit.

Talking about shit, we were discussing about how shit affects your weight and it was really funny.

Oh and..
Howard: We should get some girls to do cheerleading for us.
Cheryl: Yeah you just want to see their costumes.
Howard: Don't even need costumes la.

Right. So after school, Rachel and I went to study in the canteen because I wanted to watch soccer too. Yunian joined us. Then after the matches were over, Ashleigh, Craigven and Cynthia joined us. I finished an SEQ. Like o_O finally. Four more to go by Wednesday. It isn't even possible.

409 is 2nd for inter-class soccer because they won 407 and lost to 406. Hahaha cheers. They're actually pretty good. :D

Trash!!! :D

P.S. I feel damn stupid la, seriously. I am having problems with e maths. What the hell man.

Five people have asked me for the timetable tomorrow already. o_O

I have a crazy obsession with bags. It's like I have so many that I can never finish using already. And I just ordered three from a taiwan spree. Rofl. Bags from taiwan sprees are cheaper though.

Yes, third post today. My homework is dead.

I want to watch soccer tomorrow. 409 vs 407. Hahaha coolness.

空白格 - 蔡健雅
Goodbye & Hello


其实很简单 其实很自然
两个人的爱由两人分担
其实并不难 是你太悲观
隔着一道墙不跟谁分享

不想让你为难
你不再需要给我个答案

我想你是爱我的
我猜你也舍不得
但是怎么说 总觉得
我们之间留了太多空白格
也许你不是我的
爱你却又该割舍
分开或许是选择
但它也可能是我们的缘分

Even if only for one weekend.

So guys can twit really well too. Look at Ashleigh and Liangjie. :D

Okay. I need to do homework now.
Bring it on manzxzx. Wo ke yi de!

1. Chem O-level 2006 paper
2. Chem SPA skill 3
3. E maths 4.1, 4.2, 4.3
4. A maths 10.3, misc ex 10
5. Questions on physics notes
6. SEQs (x5)
7. SS SBQ (open space)
8. A maths calculus project

To heck with Chinese already. Bye.

P.S. I think 'luh' is a bimbo word. Luh luh luh luh! I don't want talk to you anymore luh! So mean luh! Whatever luh! See. Bimbo right?

如果那天，我没有遇见你。
我想，我就不会感到
如此痛苦，
如此悲伤，
如此难过，
如此令人悲从中来了。

但是，如果我没有遇见你。
我也不会知道
那么欢愉，
那么温柔，
那么相爱，
那么温暖，
那么幸福的心情了。

含着泪水的我，
今天，依然仰望着天空。

仰望着天空。

I miss you so.
Seems like it's been forever, since you've been gone.

Today is fun. As usual, I blame my excessive splurging on Yanling. Yoohoo, are you seeing this? Are you feeling guilty?!

Flag day in the morning. I went for nothing because I already have maximum points for CIP but ya la whatever la. I am a good student. There was a really funny ahma and some lovely people. Of course, there was a fair share of irritating people. "Early in the morning.." Like wth? I like to be there so early huh?

An angel said bye to me.

Off to redhill with Linglingzzz to collect money from her buyer.

Then headed to Orchard. Spent like $50 at kino. I bought the They Kiss Again pictorial, Bull fighting novel and Koizora novel. The girl at the cashier said she graduated from Nanhua too. Hahaha.

An angel said bye to me!

We walked around. I got my hot pink shoelaces. I got a pair of sunglasses. I got 2 patent belts (now I have 4). I got a chain. I don't like hot pink. I just like striking colours. Yeaaah. All these only cost me $23. By the way, I'm think I'm a pretty good bargain-hunter. :D

Hiiii forever 21 stuff and fbts, I'm waiting for you!

I really need more sleep. I almost died today because I walked right into the giant drain. Thank God there were railings. Then I just couldn't walk straight. Kept tripping. Even in school, I tripped over a step and fell over. -.-

I am horribly bimbotic when shopping too. My sense of direction just mysteriously disappears! ):

AN ANGEL SAID BYE TO ME!!!!

Hahaha yes, I am crazy. Told you only shopping makes me this high. Tomorrow when I have to be rushing homework, I won't be in this mood already.

Hello. I deleted the previous post and am re-posting for the day.

A quote from Amanda's previous blog,
"but reading the blogs of optimistic people like cheryl leong and charmaine helps me feel better. im like an optimism leech. im lucky to have optimistic friends. (:"

This was during May last year.

I wonder if I have become a lot less optimistic? Hmm. It's like my posts are so different.

I love 409 though we have a reputation for being a mugger class full of guaikias just because our form teacher is Ms Jesse Lim. And also having consistent A's in cleanliness checks whether random or routine. Anyway, being the first class to be dismissed for lunch every assembly rocks.
I miss 209`06 a lot too. We've been through so much. Ah, nostalgia. Of course, not forgetting Mr Liu.

Life is freaking crazy. Or perhaps it's me driving myself crazy. Yeah, Huishan is right. I seriously need to be happy. Too much is on my mind. Blame it on my excellent imagination. On top of it all, homework just keeps piling up. And I still am doing really badly in school. Midyears are coming. As well as O's. Hahaha okay whatever, this is a shitty post. I shall not continue.

Be happy, girl. Be happy. Isn't this what you wanted all along?

Even though it's over now, it still kills inside.
Cause for so long, you have been my life.

Hi. I have nothing much to post. I am really in love with the veronicas. Their songs are so good. As Amanda Ang said, they're beautifully emo. And not cheesy at all.

"She should just go be a lawyer." Shanjun.

Rofl. Something like that. MJL was hilarious today.

It feels just like I'm going crazy
I guess that this is breaking up
And now not even you can save me
Will someone wake me up?
Never thought that we'd go under
I guess we won't be making up
And if this is a dream I wonder
Could someone wake me up?

Do you even know how much it hurt
That you gave up on me to be with her
Revenge is sweeter than you ever were

Firstly, YAY YAY YAY YAY!
I think I'm getting A1 for CCA. I have an A2 now because they have yet to count my points for leadership. Yay yay yay! :D

Circuit training for PE. I ran a lot.

Then took sec twos for footdrill with Xinyi, Carol and Caitlyn. Caitlyn and I didn't do much but yeah whatever. In the end they had to run three (notverylongbutstill) rounds. Had to run with them so yeah. See, I ran a lot.

5 SEQs to do this weekend. Lovely, isn't it?

I think if I can't go to HCJC, I will go to SAJC.
If I can't go to SAJC, I will go to a poly.

Maybe Ngee Ann Poly's biomedical science or mass comm or tourism.
(near my house too.)
Don't know yet.

Yeah, so there.

P.S. I know you may not like me. Maybe you even hate me. Seriously, I don't care okay. You can bitch about me all you like. Just don't twist the facts. Say you hate my face, fine. Don't go around telling people other untrue things.

(edited;8.00pm)
Sorry, I'm random. I just remembered Jamie and Liangjie talking about the logo when we went to starbucks. Did you know the starbucks logo in Singapore is altered because you could see the woman's boobs? So I think the starbucks tee is pretty stupid. Like everyone is wearing it/selling it. And out of everyone who wears it how many will really know that the logo isn't the original starbucks logo? Or how many even are starbucks lovers? Why the hell everyone wants to wear a topless woman tee, I have no idea.

But it hurts when I think
When I let it sink in
It's all over me
I'm lying here in the dark

Just reached home.

I am thoroughly amused with the new seating arrangement. Next to Shanjun and Yileen. And I have Damien behind me too. He is such a twit, seriously. He was doing all sorts of twit poses, along with sulks and yeah. LOL. Tablemate, shoemate, rowmate, BFF and all his crap.

I miss Amanda Ng!!!! We're so far apart. Tsk.

After school, had very unproductive study sessions. (very entertaining though.) Perhaps I was self-entertaining. Kay whatever. Was with Rachel in school. She went home so went to JE mac with Ian. And Liangjie came to join for a while. Then I went for tuition. Talked a lot.

Yeah k bye. I have to do 4 seqs by tomorrow. I'm dead.
Hahaha yay not going to do anymore. Off to study bio.

I waste day after day waiting for your call.
And doing nothing meaningful.

My life is so aimless.

I can't even see myself in a year's time.

Whether it's now or later, I've got you.

I'm home early for once.

Studied chem like hell yesterday night and there was no test. Okay, not really. Still, studying chem is hell already.

Didn't study bio since it was supposed to be SPA and in the end, there was a test. We got scolded because almost everyone didn't study so it was postponed to Wednesday.

Enrichment is crappy. Did a compo in freaking 45 minutes or so. I don't know why I'm losing my talent in writing narrative and stuff. Maybe it's because nowadays I don't write those anymore. I end up trying all the stupid argumentative questions and killing my results. Bah.

Math was sleepy. Sorry, I really can't find another word to describe it.

Physics was alright. I have to come back to school every Saturday for like the coming month. Wonderful.

End of my shittily boring day.

By the way, after O's.. ANYONE WANTS TO BUY MY NOTES? My handwriting is super nice and neat, you won't have any problems reading it. I can sell to you per chapter or per subject if you like. :x HAHAHA.

Lots of homework.

Ultimately, cliche as it sounds, the future is in your hands.
Cheryl, please wake up!!

(edited;9.18pm)
I remember we have a math assignment due end of this month. It's more like history. Some writeup to do about some mathematicians or something. Can't remember the questions to choose from.
Failure to hand in will result in deduction of 5% of midyear a maths results.
Damn it. This is blackmail. Like I'm not failing badly enough. And tomorrow is going to suck. Double period of SS.

You said you loved me.

But I realized I never knew what was your definition of love.

If we missed out on each other, now.

I know I am posting too much. If you can't catch up because you're not a regular reader, I'm so sorry. It's not like I post for the sake of people reading. I'm posting for myself.

I aim to finish SS prelim paper, SS worksheets, 3 chemistry papers, as much of the physics paper as I can and sheng huo sui bi today. The rest can wait. Not to mention study for bio and chem revision test, as well as bio SPA.

On a random note, I realize though your heart can never be broken, it's forever bleeding. Literally. Blood goes in and out of your heart right? So why is bleeding hearts considered a sad thing? If not for it, we wouldn't be alive.

And seventeen had some survey on "have you ever considered dating your girlfriend's best friend?". The guys are damn mean. Wth.

"Girls can be sucked into their relationships and give too much. They like to be so into their boyfriends, you know? And you can't do that because you get too infatuated - and then you lose contact with your friends. It happens to a lot of girls."

By the way, I still have completed no homework and I have not studied. (Two tests + bio SPA) Raaaarh.

A beautiful song from Koizora. (also my blog song currently)
The lyrics are reallyyyyy nice.

I'm not bothering to post the translations because if you simply post it in English it looks hideous.
Too bad if you don't understand, you can go search for it yourself.

And yes, I learnt conversational japanese before. So please do not be so self-assuming and say, "She herself doesn't understand anything she's posting anyway." or shit like that and all.
I don't know how to write and yeah, I don't understand a lot of words but hey, I do know a bit of Japanese. -.-


Heavenly days / 新垣结衣

目覚ましが鸣る前に起きて 时を止める
思い出せるのはもうなんとなくだけど君の事

一亿分の君に会えた奇迹なんかも
いつの间にか忘れちゃうかな？
忘れた事さえもきっと忘れてしまうの

heavenly days
胸のポケットの部屋
君の消えたぬくもりを探すよ
もう二度と君を想うことはなくても
まだ少し暖かいあの日々に键をかけて

歩きつかれて座り込んで途方にくれて
叶わない梦『运命』とかふたりなら言えた

改札口で言えなかった言いたかった
｢ありがとう｣って言叶は多分
｢さよなら｣よりも悲しい言叶に思うの

heavenly days
うまく笑えてたかな？
最后のキスシーン震える君の手を
握れなかった涙さえ落ちなかった
一人ぽっちになり今さら溢れ出すよ

heavenly days
胸のポケットの部屋
君の消えたぬくもりを探すよ
もう二度と君を想うことはなくても
手を伸ばしてみてもここにはもう居ないよ
新しい光の下歩き出すよ

Out with Emelia and Alethea today.
Oh, today is ending in a while so I shall make this post quick.

Off to my favourite place (dhoby ghaut).

Ate lunch at Cafe Cartel. Since I'm hurrying, no photos. Alethea, I know you're feeling very relieved that I'm not posting the photos anymore. Anyway, our bill was like 60 right? Or somewhere there. So yeah, for three people. -.-

Watched step up 2. I think the dance is super cool! I'm going to learn dance with Jamie after O's. Yayyyy wonderful friends I have.

After that, we walked to orchard. And then just walked around.

I want to buy coloured shoelaces. -.-

Went to my cousin's house after that. And I'm now home.

I think my obsession with Jay Chou is fading away. No, I didn't like him just because I'm a crazy teenage girl who thinks he is oh-so-cute. He is damn talented. Yes, I still think that he is damn good but somehow, just.. ugh. Never mind.

Also, I am going to die one day. Perhaps, very soon. I mean, everyone knows radioactivity is going to kill you. I sleep with my phone under my pillow so yeah, you see. And I spend hours on my freaking handphone. Talked to Jiawen for two hours yesterday night. And Zhengda for almost three hours the day before yesterday. -.-

So hopelessly devoted and giving, it was obviously too good to last.

Don't give me a guilt trip, I'm so over it.

Going to be doing quizzes on my LJ. Yup.
251469.livejournal.com
(As I have mentioned, not going to anyhow add friends :D)

Hahaha I am still really happy about the CCA points.

Though I'm going to be damn screwed on Monday. Seeing as I have completed literally no homework. Everything is either half-done or untouched. Raaarh. And I have to study for chem revision test(damn you, salts), bio revision test and bio SPA on Sunday too.

Homework
Chem RV 2002 prelim
Chem RV 2003 prelim
Chem (holiday assignment -organic)
Chem workbook (redox)
SS NH prelim paper
Physics CT1 paper
A maths ex10.3
Sheng huo sui bi

And I will not include things that I've not been handing in/doing since long ago because I will never be finishing them anyway.

Time for you to go, cause you know I'm better off on my own.

And I can't say I've never wondered if you ever think about those days.

I'm ecstatic about getting an A for cca, meaning I can minus two points. Harharhar. I didn't know I already got the 100 hours for CIP, meaning this year I did a lot of CIP for nothing but it's okay. I got 0 points for the leadership part though. No idea why. Shall go check next time. I know it doesn't matter since it's already an A but the more points the merrier right!

Must mug must mug must mug.
Will come online less often once school reopens.

Did I mention I was obsessed with KOIZORA? :D

And sidetracking again. Where else can you find a girl as pretty, smart, confident, friendly, caring, kind (etcetc) as me? Rofl. You never will. So too bad.

P.S. Today is 白色情人节 or something in countries like Japan, where girls get to give presents to guys. I am jealous. I want to have those kind of stuff in Singapore too!!!! It's so cool right. Teenagers in Singapore are terribly shy. Sheesh. Watch sky of love. I mean, which guy in Singapore will actually chase a girl like that huh?

(edited;2.46pm)
Shit, I can't believe I forgot such an important point. I am so lucky to have someone like Amanda(Ang) in my life. True, we aren't as close as we used to be but like she said, our friendship has survived a lot. No doubt, she's the one I run to when I need someone. She's the one who will understand what I'm ranting about despite hardly being able to talk in school since we're split up in different classes. I really hope to go to the same JC as you! Though I know you are really smart and it's highly unlikely I will do as well as you so yeah. Hahaha love you anyway, girl. You shall be my motivation, to mug hard for O's.

It's game over. You lost this round.

Felt like no one could hear me.

I went to watch sky of love(koizora) at cathay with someone. And we got couple seat. Rofl!! Had fun with someone though we didn't have time to walk around. But I got to stand under someone's umbrella ella ella eh eh eh. And I laughed a lot with someone.

Yes, I am posting like this on purpose because I know you all are so kpo. :D

It's a super nice show. Hiro is so frigging cute. Ugh. And I think I broke my own personal record. I've never cried so much watching a movie okay. Hahah whatever. It was sad kaaaay. In fact, I hardly even cry this much. The last time I did was like.. because of somebodything.

Love the songs. The lyrics were so suitable. I have all the instrumental tracks but I can't get those with lyrics. Send me if you have. :D

Met so many people today. I haven't been to cathay in ages, aye.

如果没遇见你，我就不会有如此悲伤心痛的回忆。
但是，我也不会懂得什么是幸福快乐。

What Cheryl Means

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily. You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind. A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

I agree.

I'm worth all the crap that I'm putting you through.

Back from NUH again. The nurses are quite nice. Like, they let me see stuff because I'm interested in doing all that next time too. :D

KAP-ed with Alethea and Ian today. As usual, I couldn't concentrate with Ian around because he kept talking. It got better after he left anyway. HAHAHA.

He treated Alethea and I to McFlurry. Yaaaay for Ian. :D

Then went to Alethea's house because it was raining.

Borrowed a lot of shows. I'm going to have movie marathon tomorrow night or something.

I want to work in an asylum or with drug addicts doing rehab and stuff. I'm not joking. I've wanted to for quite some time. Hahaha yes. Or neurology. After all, fashion design is almost impossible. And a writer isn't easy too.

Off to read my teenvogue.

最美的不是下雨天 是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐

Brings back memories.

And I don't mind if you know it.

You are such a bitch, really.
I mean, please stop trying. It doesn't make you any prettier ANYWAY. You can't even compare to me, sheesh.
Not to mention, you're so desperate. My god. Luckily, I'm going to be off and away from this hellhole (school) in no time at all. Sure, I'll miss school but I'll be glad to not have to see you again.

Right, sorry.

My elmo tee is really cute. I love wearing it. Charlene Chan, can you take orders for big bird and cookie monster too! HAHAHA. And let's have an oogly outing again. It's been so long okay. I think the last time was going together to watch Singapore Idol.

I'm going to watch sky of love with someone on Thursday. Yayyyy then after that go walk and find sunglasses. Love love love!!

And at night, may be going to watch HORTON with Liangjie and Jamie.

Oh yes, did I tell you how much I love MATSUMOTO JUN and OGURI SHUN and HE JUN XIANG and ZHENG YUAN CHANG?

Not forgetting, SHERYL ZENG! :D
Shucks. I'm crazy over her already.

I want to watch leap years! I can't believe I haven't watched it yet.

KAP tomorrow with Eng Xiu Ying Alethea and maybe Ian. Hahaha! Yay.

By the way, I am so irritated that I can't go to friendster at all so I can't see the comments I've received. Whatever. To hell with friendster. My account shall just rot there. There's no point in it anyway. I go to friendster only to be annoyed even more. Zzz.

Sorry if I keep sidetracking but yeah.

1. Are you single?
HAHAHA yes. But I'm not easy to get okay.

2. Are you happy?
Pretty alright.

3. Are you bored?
Yes.

4. Are you sad?
Currently, I don't think so.

5. Are you Italian?
No.

6. Are you German?
No.

7. Are you Asian?
Yesss.

8. Are you cool?
Of course. Who can be cooler than me? Not even ice cubes manzzz.

9. Are you Irish?
No.

10. Are your parents still married?
Yes.

11.Are you Samoan?
Er no.

TEN FACTS

1. Birth Place:
Thomson Medical centre.
Rofl. I stayed there for more than a month and probably kicked got kicked by Zhengda in the nursery there.

2. Hair Color:
Black. I own brown extensions and I look forward to getting more colourful ones.

3. Eye color:
Brown? I don't know. The 'eye' is a rather general term. It can be so many colours right.

6. Birthday:
December 31. I'm special and you know it.

7. Mood:
Satisfied with life, lazy, bored.

8. Where do you live?
In a pigsty, also known as my room.

9. How many credit cards do you have?
None? Atm card, maybe?

10. Lefty/righty?
Lefty. See, what did I say about being special?

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE

1. Have you ever been in love?
I'm in love now, with a dozen people. SHERYL ZENG!!! I'm such a lesbian.
Oops, did I just say that?

2. Do you believe in love at first sight?
Maybe.

3. Why did your last relationship fail?
Because life was being a bitch and decided to get in the way.

4. Have you ever been hurt?
Yup. You mean to say you haven't?

5. Have you ever broken someones heart?
I hope to break yours and crush it into a million pieces. Then you will just disappear into nothingness.

6. Are you in love?
HELLO, SHERYL ZENG ARE YOU LOOKING AT THIS!! I think I am in love with you! Can I be your girlfriend?

7. Are you friends with your exs?
I think so.

8. Are you afraid of commitment?
Quite, yes.

9. Have you hugged someone within the last week?
Yeah.

10. Have you ever had a secret admirer?
Yeah. Lots and lots and lots. I believe you, reading this right now, are secretly admiring me too.

TEN THIS OR THAT?

1. Love or lust?
Lovelovelove.

2. Liquor or beer?
For now, neither because I think the taste sucks.

3. Cats or dogs?
Dogs. Male ones, thanks.

4. A few best friends or many regular friends?
Few best friends. :D

5. Television or Internet?
Internet. Rofl.

6. Pepsi or coke?
Er. HAHAHA I prefer drinking coke, if that's what you mean.

7. Wild night out or romantic night in?
Romantic night in. I am decent. No wild nights out okay.

8. Busch Gardens or Six Flags?
Harh.

9. Night or day?
Night!

10. IM or phone?
Depending on who and why.

TEN HAVE YOU EVER

1. Been caught sneaking out?
I have never done that before because there was never any need to.

2. Been skinny dipping?
No.

3. Done something you regret?
Maybe.

4. Bungee jumped?
No.

5. White water rafted?
White? LOL I don't know. I've gone water rafting though.

6. Finished an entire jaw breaker?
Think so.

7. Wanted something/someone so badly it hurts?
Maybe? Can't remember.

8. Prank called a store?
No.

9. Skipped school?
Yeah, I suppose.

10. Wanted to disappear?
Yes.

TEN PREFERENCES

1. Smile or eye:
Smile.

2. Light or dark hair:
Dark. In Singapore, it's more normal for that anyway.

3. Hugs or kisses:
Hugs.

4. Shorter or taller:
Taller, obviously. If you were shorter than me, that'd be sad, seeing as I'm so short already.

5. Intelligence or attraction:
Can I have both?

6. Romantic or spontaneous:
Romantic.

7. Jock or Nerd?
A little bit of both! Kay, sorry, I'm so greedy.

8. Hook-up or relationship:
Relationship. Why so desperate eh.

9. Funny and poor OR Rich and serious:
Er. Funny and poor is fine. You can't be that poor anyway.

10. Play the guitar or into sports:
Play the guitar.

TEN LASTS

1. Last phone call you made:
Jamie.

2. Last phone call you received:
Rachel.

3. Last person you hung out with:
A lot of 409 people, seeing as we had remedial yesterday. Alethea, Yanling, Waner, Rachel, Cynthia, Amanda, Abigail and all. Yeaaah.

4. Last person you hugged:
Eh.. Alethea? For wanting to call mac. Hahaha!

5. Last person you tackled:
No idea. I shall tackle Alethea the next time I see her.

6. Last person you IMed:
Yanling.

7. Last person you kissed:
Er maybe I should kiss Alethea as well as tackle her.
LOL okay never mind. Her head will explode after seeing this.

8. Last thing eaten:
Spaghetti.

Jamie's posts are inspiring. I mean, not the emo ones, but the more normal ones (for Jamie, they're normal.) do spark off many thoughts. Therefore, the title of this post is taken from her too.

By the way, Jamie, HAHAHAHA an alliance with your form teacher and your mum. Hey, and you forgot your bestie.

Yes, lucky for us, O's are coming. We're going to study together and I totally cannot wait to go to a JC/poly and meet new people. It's like a completely new beginning in life. How positively exciting. Of course, by saying that, it doesn't mean I'm going to forget everyone already. I will only forget you if you forget me, which is obvious you won't because I'm unforgettable.

Oh, I've been blogging consistently for years already.

Noisy little immature brats irritate me. There's no denying, we all used to be that. Not saying that I'm mature now, duh. Then again, everyone has to start somewhere.

I still think you're quite childish for expecting people to tell you every single little shit in their private love life, especially when you hardly ever talk to them.
I WANT TO JOIN DEBATE IN JC MANZZZZ.
Sorry, that's completely unrelated.

Okay, anyway, I won't forget everything we've been through. The good, the bad, the ugly too.

Really, I can't be bothered anymore. It doesn't concern me anyway, does it?

Words said in the past still annoy me but as they say, promises are meant to be broken.

Time waits for no one.

Finally, moving on with life.

I am doing many, many quizzes. :D
I'm practically flooding my own blog but yeah whatever, many parts are quite true.

You Are Strawberry Ice Cream

A bit shy and sensitive, you are sweet to the core. You often find yourself on the outside looking in. Insightful and pensive, you really understand how the world works. You are most compatible with chocolate chip ice cream.

I've got my heart set on anywhere but here.

Back from school, like finally.

I was late by almost 20 minutes for the argumentative workshop. Had to get a chair from other classes. Whatever. I didn't like it because he kept asking us to stay away from the argumentative compos. I do not agree, at all. I will do argumentative for O's. Then I will still get my A1 and laugh at you.

The second workshop on comprehension was alright. Pretty basic stuff, which won't help because the question will be so much harder in reality. I sat with Alethea and Cynthia. Cynthia was self-entertaining throughout.

I just knew that Cynthia's sister is called Cheryl too! AmandaNg was funny. She indirectly said that I'm very pretty. HAHAHA.

Had a short break before physics remedial. We called for macdelivery earlier on, so yup had that for lunch. Hahaha we're the best right!!

Physics ended quickly enough. Stoned at the 3rd floor lift lobby until three. Went off to auditorium again for chemistry test, which I screwed up. I sat _ of _ though. Cheers. Hao jiu bu jian.

Sidetracking; I was so tempted to throw all your books away. Zzz. Yes, I do hate you that much.

And only one person knows my passcode for touchy! You, better be honoured because if I die it'll be up to you. :D

and the tears are pouring.

As usual, by the time I met Jamie, we were 20 minutes late.
After meeting Emelia, when we finally met Liangjie, we were 40 minutes late.
So typical. I love going out with Jamie because we're forever late.

IT fair today with Liangjie, Jamie and Emelia. I looked damn weird and stuck out like a sore thumb because I was wearing leggings. Then again, I am not like you hypocrite. I dare to wear weird things because I am special. I dare to laugh at others because I'm not afraid of you laughing at me. After all, I AM SPECIAL. :D

Emelia left soon after. Then we studied redox at starbucks. Had haagen daz(sp?) ice-cream.

Harhar at you vertical freak of a pansy.

Went to buy LLJ's ipod touch too. His shall be named stalky. I fell in love with the 8gb pink ipod nano. I may get it next time (like long time later) if I can save enough. I will then name it huffy. I know I have an ipod touch. But 8gb really isn't enough for me okay.

(Oh, or I will get my huffy if I get an L1R5 of 8 for midyears.)

Arcade @ dhoby ghaut after that. Jamie and I topped up $20 and got $20 more free gameplay. So we were like wooooh happy hour. Hahaha Jamie, you owe me more than $10 of gameplay still. We have to go arcade again! :D

Can't go out with Jamie. We ended up having a food spree. Ate like such pigs. We were super childish with the candy floss. Even LLJ couldn't resist okay. :X I think she spent 30+ on food today. Rofl!

Seeyou. Redox test tomorrow. Damn screwed.

Erm I would have posted more but I think I will stop here because my eyes are itching like hell and I have a flu. I'm going out tomorrow so I need to get some sleep. Maybe more will come once I get photos from everyone else.



I look nice for once but Shanjun isn't looking at the camera. Bah.

I like thissss too! Like you eat spaghetti together then get the same strand. Rofl! I'm so gay. Never mind.

More to come next time! When I'm not dying of a flu/itchy eyes!

I count the steps that you take.


Today was fun enough. Yanling and I spent a lot of time to paste all the alphabets by ourselves. But we had a lovely buffet breakfast and lunch. Stuffed myself like crap. Took many photos. Can't wait for everyone to send me photos. Some groups were really fun. Like.. Yanling and I were playing some bonding game or something with Amanda, Jingwei, Kevin and Nigel's group. So funny.

Collected my stuff myself.
I'm broke but it's okay cause Huishan owes me $60 (cause I paid her to pay for me), Liangjie owes me $15 and I owe Emelia $15. Rofl!

Now, I'm home. Suckfest.

However, Sunday's coming soon. Lovely!

I have an LJ but I won't tell you. If you find it, good for you. If you can't, too bad. Some (or many posts) will be friends only though. And I will not accept you as a friend unless you are Emelia or Rachel or somebody like that. :D

And I met a girl from another school who played at Yanling and my game station today at the MRT and she said hi to me. Hahaha cool. I didn't know I made friends. :X

Shall post photos later. Bye!

P.S. I hate you, hypocrite. If you dare to laugh at people and all that, you should dare to be laughed at. If you can't stand being bitched about and all then you shouldn't do the same to others. I can bitch about you because I don't give a shit what you say about me. Thanks.

Hiiii, I am posting because I felt like it.

WSQJ, I love you loads alright. Be happy because you still have me. I'll be here for you. :D

And I love all you people too. All you people who are always there for me, who always cheer me up, who always make me laugh. You will know who you are.

I think you should just go away 'cause
There's no necessity for you to stay and
Next time you come around my way
Forget it baby

Firstly, my progress report sucks.

A. maths 35.0
Biology 77.0
Comb hum (geog) 40.0
Comb hum (SS) 72.2
Chemistry 57.0
English 63.3
Higher Chinese 68.6
Maths 90.0
Physics 51.1

And you know what. I only hit the target for bio, ss, higher chinese and e maths.
I am damn pissed that my english didn't hit the target. Like, helloooo? I'm Cheryl!!!! My English isn't this shit alright.
And see the contrast between my a maths and e maths. So shitty!!!!

L1R5 of 18 (if counting express chinese). Not good. But I'm considered lucky already.

My bio revision test sucks. 15/20.
My a maths binomial & simultaneous test was cool. 17/20. And it was cause I didn't put minus sign.

Hee. I think holidays should be abolished. Who really cares anyway. Holidays are just an excuse to dump us as much homework as possible. Have 3 prelim papers for chemistry. 1 past year common test paper for physics. 1 past year prelim paper for SS. And a lot more, but I shall not be listing out. I'll be typing till tomorrow.

Cheers to you. By the way did I mention 409 is overall 3rd in level for physics? Hahaha! And I got a pathetic C6. Never mind. Lots of positive influences around me. All the muggers. :D

I know, I know. My post has been all about school and school and school. You're so bored, I know. TOO BAD THOUGH. I don't care. Teeheehee.

I don't know how I'm going to study for redox test on Monday when I have CIP from 8.30am to 6.30pm tomorrow and I'm going out on Sunday. Rofl, bye.

You're not comin' in
A heart ready for a life of sorrow
No you can't come back tomorrow
Shut my windows
Lock my doors
'Cause my heart won't be your ragdoll anymore

Cheryl: Ah well. We deserve the best. And btw, you already have the best. Which is me, obviously. :D
Jamie: HAHA I LOVE YOU MAN.

I know, right? *bimbowristflick*
Yessss I love you too, my bestie.

Cynthiaaaaweeeee is always always online nowadays.
You know why?
Because she wants to talk to me!!

By the way, listen to fei1 mai4 pin3 by Jolin.
(I know she went for plastic surgery but shut up, her songs are still nice, she can sing and dance, so I don't care about her boob size.)
From me, to you. Shall post the lyrics one day.

All I wanted to feel
I wanted to love
It's all my fault now
A tradegy I fear

Hello.
I don't really know what to say here anymore.
My life is a bloody rollercoaster ride.
I don't understand anything on redox.
Someone, please save me in time for the test on Monday.
Goodbye.

Shiru-chan x3 Eki-chan. :D

I am funny. Rachel and I are funny people. You are not. So you should stop acting like you are funny like me.

Anyway, I'm going to learn Japanese from a proper language school after O's. Don't pangseh okay, Brenda! Now, my vocabulary is quite limited so yeah.

Yay, tomorrow I'm going to make Cynthia happy and take photos. Hahaha!

Maths test tomorrow. Yay for me. I'm so dead.

Don't know why I'm posting so randomly, again. I guess I've been feeling rather weird recently. Like, I can be laughing like crazy one moment and sad the next moment. LOL. Never mind, bye. I hope I don't fail a maths.

I've never even passed a maths once this whole damn year. (Okay, maybe it's just a term but yeah.)

Watashi wa suki Eki-chan desu!
Aishiteru yo. :D

School life is mundane.

Guides was quite fun though. Brenda, Eckky and I were going crazy over japanese shows, animes and all. And was bitching with Eckky throughout the day. Like, were smsing since last night till we could talk to each other in person during guides. Rofl.

We're going to get a really original tee for guides tee.
"this is our GUIDES TEE. stop staring."
HAHAHAHAA my god. It was so random but we thought it was pretty cool. Then the stop staring bit can't be seen when we tuck in during guides.

Happy birthday to Abigail and happy belated birthday to Evelyn!

I seriously need someone who is free on Saturday to go to Bukit Batok to collect 3 tops and pay $46 for me. I will pay you back, don't worry. Ahh. Who stays near there or something? Yanling, Shanshanzzz and I all have CIP. My busy life sucks.

And I just received my belt. Yay, so cool.
I am so obsessed over bags, belts and tops. I don't know how many I have now already.

P.S. AI SI NI LE, WONG SHI QIN. Let's go out for icecream!

いまならいえる

I think I'm going to create a private blog. And I post waaay too much here already. I am seriously resisting the temptation to use vulgarities because you know, I never do use them unless I am really pissed off. Tchhh.

I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night.

Thanks to Huishan, who's helping me pay for my two skirts and collecting the tops for me on Saturday! Love you shanshanzzzz! :D

SS test tomorrow. A maths test the day after tomorrow. Chemistry test on Monday.
Homework still piling up.

But I shall believe in myself because Audrey told me she got 26 for midyears. Yet, she's in NJC now. Heh, she's still superrrr cute kay.

Holiday plans so you know when you can ask me out (before I am fully booked)
Saturday; CIP 8am to 6.30pm
Sunday; IT fair/shopping/don't-know-what with Liangjie and Jamie
Monday; English workshop 8am to 12.30pm
Physics remedial 1pm to 2.30pm
Chemistry remedial 3pm to 4pm
Tuesday; Out with Yanling, Audrey, Gladys, Waner?
Tuition 6pm to 8pm
Wednesday; Free
Thursday; Free
Friday; Chinese remedial
Saturday; Free
Sunday; Free

P.S. School still sucks.
And my name in Jap sounds terrible.

It's just not right.

Cheryl is moodswingy but we shall not talk about the bad stuff.

She is positively delighted with herself.

13/18 for SS. The most unexpected results for this common test. I mean, hey, it's a frigging A2 okay! And I only wrote four lines for my SBQ, wasn't completed. Though my class highest is 16/18, my SS was never good so I'm happy.

48/70 for Chinese. I am proud of it too since I had no wrong words/sentence structure at all. Whoaaa right. It was just ticks and ticks and more ticks kay! And I think I could have done a lot better if I wrote suggestions. I left out the whole paragraph on that. :X

Went to central with Ian, Yanling, Gladys, Audrey, Amanda and Jingwei.

By the way, I love Amanda Ng Li'En that much. It must be telepathy that we had the same personal messages and when I opened her conversation, I realized we had the same display picture too.

She's mine already okay. No guy (I don't care who you are) will snatch her away from me.

Perhaps, what really made my day (other than SS) was Ian reading me all the jokes from 8-days. Yeah, thanks arh. For making me laugh like crap.

409 is already fully booked on Monday by remedials from 8am to 4pm. It's worse than normal school days but yeah whatever. Rofl. My mugger class, I love you so. Class jacket!!! :D :D

(edited;5.23pm)
I must have looked really sleepy in the morning because Ms JLim came all the way to my table and put her clipboard in front of me. Then it had all our horribly ugly photos on it. I stared at her. She stared back at me and went "You don't want to see arh?" I was like o_O why she suddenly showing me.
Off to tuition.

Such a long way back.

And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end.

I'm the best. I ordered macdelivery at 2am since I was still awake, asking them to deliver at 6+ so I could bring food to school.

I cannot believe I screwed up chem SPA today. I mean, it was the freaking easiest (Yes, even more so than titration) SPA I've ever sat for. I finished so early that I could clear up and sleep for a good long time. And I drew a perfect graph in one lovely stroke. I didn't need to erase at all.
BUT I DID ONE LESS READING THAN I WAS SUPPOSED TO!!!

My goodness. I hate my eyes. I swear they just don't want to communicate well with my brain.

Am not in a good mood.

Nevertheless, at least I have two subjects to be proud of for this common test. Have yet to get back Chinese and SS. Screw SS. I'm going to get that back tomorrow and words cannot describe how I dread that moment. Sathi is going to kill me. And it's not as if I like to not do well. Tchhh.

Sidetrack. I keep tripping and falling and getting into a lot of accidents nowadays. Walked home in the rain, almost slipped and fell. Banged into a lot of things. See, I told you. It's my stupid eyes again. I don't know why they're so mean to me.

I have a hell load of homework, which won't stop piling up. So much for holidays coming soon. Snowball effect. Pfft.

I like people like Mr Chia who are able to be bhb without making people puke.
"Are you looking at the whiteboard or looking at me? I know some of you like to look at me. Nothing wrong with that."

Will be going to suntec next Monday myself (unless someone wants to go with me), to hunt for belts.

Yeah I know this is a boring post. I'm in no mood to be funny or summarize anyway.

P.S. Mdm Junaidah is very nice. She baked brownies for us. It was superrrr nice. I think she should bake more and maybe give us every lesson. :D

I am so annoyed with myself now. I don't know why I'm so affected all of a sudden by those few words from you.

It's nothing but a lie.

VISIT OH-SOGLAMOROUS.BLOGSPOT.COM
CLICK CLICK CLICK

Heh okay. If you haven't realized, that's my blogshop.
Nothing much yet but I have school, homework and all so yup.

Haven't done any homework.

I hate school.

I feel like smacking someone. Damn you. Go screw yourself.

And I wonder when you will finally grow up and realize what a bitch you're being?

You're so blind. Never mind. That's your problem, not mine.

(edited;7.41pm)
I'm so amused. Censored because Liangjie doesn't want people to know what he said. He says they will think he is _____. :D

liangjie. 'if its cold outside... show the world the warmth of your smile... says:
hoho. if **** saw the *****. they wont like any **** already!
Cheryl, } oh-soglamorous.blogspot.com says:
probably everyone would be fighting for me and only me O:
Cheryl, } oh-soglamorous.blogspot.com says:
:X
liangjie. 'if its cold outside... show the world the warmth of your smile... says:
HAHA BU YAO LIAN :D

You can hide behind your stories, but don't take me for a fool.
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want, but I know, I know.

张韶涵


像一场梦却醒不过来
另一个我在看着我
她问我值不值得
为你付出所有
只要一想起你的温柔
就会让我看不清楚
你想做的你
没有谁强迫我坚强
我却都忍的住
清醒的孤独

你永远是我的最爱
不管爱你有多难
我的心只想属于你
无法预知的未来
你试着抱起我
却看见远方寂寞
爱将会克服一切
在我心中
我不会停止爱着你
握着你温热的手
就算偶尔透露
你的不安和放纵
我总是相信你

另一个你在看着我
他问我愿不愿意
给你更多自由
只要一想起你的忧愁
我想做的我
梦里的孤独
你永远是我的最爱


A pretty song by Angela. It's from her first album, which is a long time ago, but that doesn't matter.

Can't wait for June holidays.
I'm going to get extensions with Jamie again.
Actually this was decided a long time ago but I just remembered.

I'm getting either lime green or blue or purple.

:D :D :D

WONGSHIQINJAMIE!!!!!!

And my elmo tee is here!

YAY CHARLENE CHAN! :D

P.S. The way I spend money shopping online is scary. I have just ordered $30 worth of stuff (not stopping here either) and I owe Charlene $8. I am so broke already manzzz.

Chem SPA is on Monday. I think if it's the one on temperature, I will just go smell ammonia and faint or something. It's the most horrible SPA I've ever had this year lah, please. Kill meeee. I'm going to screw O's.

And I don't know.
This could break my heart or save me.
Nothing's real, until you let go completely.

Was in school from 8.30 to 1. Training session for next Saturday's CIP. So Yanling and I are game masters for some twister-like station. Mr Chia sponsored lunch.

And he's so funny okay. I bought $2 worth of chicken wings because my mum wanted. Then he was standing there and he was like "Eh chi zhe me duo hui pang ah!".

"Mei you bi ni pang la." :X

Hahahaha! Kay bye.

LOL @ YOU UGLY BITCH.

Three months and it's still harder now.
Three months I've been living here without you now.

Wo hen bu shuang la tmd.

Anyway, I don't feel like talking much about school, as usual. Just that I screwed up chem test because I didn't study AT ALL. Jesse's so going to catfight me. Raah. I'm dying of a splitting headache now. And there isn't anything memorable or whatever so yeah.

I'm pretty happy with myself though. I've been reaching school almost late (like today I stepped into the parade square just before the national anthem started) everyday but I've only been late once for this year.

YOU ARE THE WORLD TO ME

...

...

...

BUT I AM YOUR SUN.

So basically, you revolve around me yet you're not really my problem. Okay okay, I know I am damn funny. I was being random and ended up with that line. Went around telling people. Rofl!

Heats were pretty cool. I was the start IC. LOL, damn stupid. At least I had Vanessa to talk to.
Grab grab interesting people. :x

And please arh. Stare simi sai man. I know you are so deprived and never see pretty girl like me before but still, exercise self control can?! I'll smack your boobs if you have any in the first place. Ugh. Your face is so fugly still act what sehzzz.

Yeah, sorry. I'm getting more explicit each day, and many people tell me so. -.-

(To some people wearing starbucks tees)
So you're walking around with a topless woman on your shirt.
Then people tell you that and you go "Ohmygod, really! I never noticed!"
Tch such bimbos.

At least, I'm accepting it the way it is now.
And when things can't get any worse, it can only get better. So cheer up, people. :D

Midyears are around the corner. And if I screw things up, it shows that four years of my life has just gone to waste. Time to wake up. All the best, girl.

Anyone wants to have study sessions or something with me regularly or something?

You think you deserve it.
You want it all right now, your way.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
CYNTHIA WEE! :D
Lots of love! & I miss all the ranting with you. We haven't been doing that! Hahaha!

I'm sorry I don't buy presents unless someone shares with me because I always don't know what to get and have no time to anyway. So yeah. Sorry to many many people.
But I'll give you my love! :D

Back from the hospital. I wore my sunglasses and hot pink HOHinspi tee today. So cool kkk.

Hmm. I have quite a lot to do now. My calculator is dead. And uh.. okay, bye.

The opposite of love isn't hate, it's indifference.
If you hate me, it means you still care.
Yes, I care.

Flames to dust, lovers to friends.
Why do all good things come to an end?

Physics remedial today.

After that went to ACJC with Waner, Yanling and Alethea. It was freaking hot and I saw many people. Many seniors whom I never knew were in AC. Hahah.

The prizes were like o_O!!

KAP-ed after that with Waner and Yanling. I was really quiet for a while but eventually, we couldn't stop talking about so many things. Hard to believe that though we were in the same class since sec 1, I never really talked to Waner much until sec three.

And Yanling is very mean! She disturbs me on msn while doing her work. So she gets everything done while I get nothing done. :x

Oh did I mention my shoelaces were hot pink? Damn striking la k. I'll post a picture later.

Life is good with so many wonderful people around me. :D

Heats on monday. Woohooo.

Btw, I'm sorry if I appear really mean. But yeah, rather than talking behind people's backs, might as well be direct. So there.

为什么只剩下我

Baaah. I am shivering like crap. I hope I'm not going to be sick because I just ate cups of ben&jerry's and it's 1am now. I think I shall go sleep.

I feel sad. Why why why??? I don't know. I think I'm going crazy.

Somehow, I tend to feel like that when it's too late at night. o_O *claws myself*

Ashita wa kyou yori mo Tomorrow will be even better than today
Dakara daijoubu So I'm okay

Shiawase ni narou Let's be happy

P.S. You can highlight to see the translation. Rofl. Yes, I know it's so pointless. Whatever.

没有你我发现自己 无法感受
需要你的时候 能不能勇敢说爱

Jesse was really funny in class. The world is coming to an end. So we all don't need to study anymore. And the world's economy will suffer in a few years. It'll be safer if you're still in school. Therefore, we should all fail O's and be retained. Hmm?

I did quite badly for bio revision test. 16/27. o_O
Bio is my consistent A1. Raaaarh.

To queensway after school to settle some printing. Then I got my lime fbts.

Then off to taka and I exchanged my tka book for two other books (2nd part of Koizora and dolphin bay novel) because there was a tear in it. Rofl! I'm a genius, please. I finished reading it already anyway. :x

Bloody malay test to do online later. And I need to know how to say "I don't know" in malay so I can just keep repeating that during the oral test. LOLLL. Someone teach me ok.

I keep forgetting what I want to blog about!!!!!

ACJC fun-o-rama thing tomorrow after physics remedial. Whoopie.

(edited;10.07pm)
Malay quiz was crap. I got 12/15 the first time. With a lot of help from Jinguan and some from Jianlong, 14.5/15 for the next two tries. Hahaha, thanks!

Some stupid bastard annoys me. Tssssk. Luckily, it's the weekend.

Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"

Anyway, because of the outburst of vulgarities, I didn't meantion how much I love guides right?

"Love guides with a kiss"
Rofl. Love the sec fours a lot. Twisted is our new word. Hahaha! How can I possibly not be entertained by them all? Especially Wenhui who is either a parallelogram (straight yet slanted) or a triangle (straight with three pointed edges). Hahahaha!

Okay, today.

Mr Chia is so discriminating. He split us into four groups to practice differentiation (with different exercises). And my group was all those who failed a maths common test. o_O

Erm. Too bad for chia though. I am an expert in differentiation and way ahead of him so yeah. Ashleigh and I were finishing the exercise while he was still introducing differentiation to us. Nehneh! I was helping people too lor.

Wobble your fats.

Jesse is damn funny la. "I know you all like bread. Who knows maybe next time you go to breadtalk can get one free bread?"

Jocelyn's japanese textbook is so cool, I may be getting the sec 1 jap textbook.

Teachers all go zoom zoom zoom like a bullet train. I think someone should put a NO SPEEDING sign in our classroom.

And Alelele, I apologize for hogging your dvds. I'll watch this weekend.

Lastly, I failed my chem redox test. It seriously makes me wonder where I'll end up at a year from now..

Hmm.



The type of guy who doesn't see
What he has until she leaves

I wish Jiang Zhi Shu was my boyfriend manzxzx. I know he's fictional. Hmm, I want my boyfriend to be someone like that then.

Okay, having an iq of 200 is impossible. It's alright. I don't expect that of my future boyfriend. 150 is enough!

HAHAHA. And he must be very dao yet very sweet like Zhi Shu.

Hopefully, he can play basketball well too. :D

Did I mention he must be handsome? (to me.) I don't give a damn if others think he's not handsome. Hoho.

Eh and don't be so tall. I am quite short, you see.


This post is crappy. I apologize. I just felt like fa hua chi-ing. :D

This is how it feels
When you wait for a call that never comes
Are you waking up cause you miss someone?

My memory is failing me again. I can't remember anything that happened today except bio SPA and after that.

I was freaking panicking like wth. Kept dropping the _. Teacher kept staring at me. And I was holding the boiling tube with my bare hands until the teacher reminded me I could kiap it. -.-Blaaah whatever.

(edit;11.29pm)
My calculator died on me twice too. I was completely going crazy la. It's not like it had no battery. The numbers just kept fading off the screen. I stabbed it for a good few minutes before it finally became normal. Ugh.
(/edit)

Thankfully, the bunsen burner was very cooperative. I lit it successfully many times and I wanted to keep lighting it with the spare time. Yes, I am damn weird. Shut up.

Central-ed with a lot of people. Ianthedodo forgot to return class keys so he went back to school.

Went to JE with Audrey.

Ian came to find me to get my SS things. Then I went for tuition.

End of day. Bye.

If I'm happy in your hands,
I'm unusually hard to hold on to.

Today was the usual. Let's skip to after school because school was shit.

Talking about shit, we were discussing about how shit affects your weight and it was really funny.

Oh and..
Howard: We should get some girls to do cheerleading for us.
Cheryl: Yeah you just want to see their costumes.
Howard: Don't even need costumes la.

Right. So after school, Rachel and I went to study in the canteen because I wanted to watch soccer too. Yunian joined us. Then after the matches were over, Ashleigh, Craigven and Cynthia joined us. I finished an SEQ. Like o_O finally. Four more to go by Wednesday. It isn't even possible.

409 is 2nd for inter-class soccer because they won 407 and lost to 406. Hahaha cheers. They're actually pretty good. :D

Trash!!! :D

P.S. I feel damn stupid la, seriously. I am having problems with e maths. What the hell man.

Five people have asked me for the timetable tomorrow already. o_O

I have a crazy obsession with bags. It's like I have so many that I can never finish using already. And I just ordered three from a taiwan spree. Rofl. Bags from taiwan sprees are cheaper though.

Yes, third post today. My homework is dead.

I want to watch soccer tomorrow. 409 vs 407. Hahaha coolness.

空白格 - 蔡健雅
Goodbye & Hello


其实很简单 其实很自然
两个人的爱由两人分担
其实并不难 是你太悲观
隔着一道墙不跟谁分享

不想让你为难
你不再需要给我个答案

我想你是爱我的
我猜你也舍不得
但是怎么说 总觉得
我们之间留了太多空白格
也许你不是我的
爱你却又该割舍
分开或许是选择
但它也可能是我们的缘分

Even if only for one weekend.

So guys can twit really well too. Look at Ashleigh and Liangjie. :D

Okay. I need to do homework now.
Bring it on manzxzx. Wo ke yi de!

1. Chem O-level 2006 paper
2. Chem SPA skill 3
3. E maths 4.1, 4.2, 4.3
4. A maths 10.3, misc ex 10
5. Questions on physics notes
6. SEQs (x5)
7. SS SBQ (open space)
8. A maths calculus project

To heck with Chinese already. Bye.

P.S. I think 'luh' is a bimbo word. Luh luh luh luh! I don't want talk to you anymore luh! So mean luh! Whatever luh! See. Bimbo right?

如果那天，我没有遇见你。
我想，我就不会感到
如此痛苦，
如此悲伤，
如此难过，
如此令人悲从中来了。

但是，如果我没有遇见你。
我也不会知道
那么欢愉，
那么温柔，
那么相爱，
那么温暖，
那么幸福的心情了。

含着泪水的我，
今天，依然仰望着天空。

仰望着天空。

I miss you so.
Seems like it's been forever, since you've been gone.

Today is fun. As usual, I blame my excessive splurging on Yanling. Yoohoo, are you seeing this? Are you feeling guilty?!

Flag day in the morning. I went for nothing because I already have maximum points for CIP but ya la whatever la. I am a good student. There was a really funny ahma and some lovely people. Of course, there was a fair share of irritating people. "Early in the morning.." Like wth? I like to be there so early huh?

An angel said bye to me.

Off to redhill with Linglingzzz to collect money from her buyer.

Then headed to Orchard. Spent like $50 at kino. I bought the They Kiss Again pictorial, Bull fighting novel and Koizora novel. The girl at the cashier said she graduated from Nanhua too. Hahaha.

An angel said bye to me!

We walked around. I got my hot pink shoelaces. I got a pair of sunglasses. I got 2 patent belts (now I have 4). I got a chain. I don't like hot pink. I just like striking colours. Yeaaah. All these only cost me $23. By the way, I'm think I'm a pretty good bargain-hunter. :D

Hiiii forever 21 stuff and fbts, I'm waiting for you!

I really need more sleep. I almost died today because I walked right into the giant drain. Thank God there were railings. Then I just couldn't walk straight. Kept tripping. Even in school, I tripped over a step and fell over. -.-

I am horribly bimbotic when shopping too. My sense of direction just mysteriously disappears! ):

AN ANGEL SAID BYE TO ME!!!!

Hahaha yes, I am crazy. Told you only shopping makes me this high. Tomorrow when I have to be rushing homework, I won't be in this mood already.

Hello. I deleted the previous post and am re-posting for the day.

A quote from Amanda's previous blog,
"but reading the blogs of optimistic people like cheryl leong and charmaine helps me feel better. im like an optimism leech. im lucky to have optimistic friends. (:"

This was during May last year.

I wonder if I have become a lot less optimistic? Hmm. It's like my posts are so different.

I love 409 though we have a reputation for being a mugger class full of guaikias just because our form teacher is Ms Jesse Lim. And also having consistent A's in cleanliness checks whether random or routine. Anyway, being the first class to be dismissed for lunch every assembly rocks.
I miss 209`06 a lot too. We've been through so much. Ah, nostalgia. Of course, not forgetting Mr Liu.

Life is freaking crazy. Or perhaps it's me driving myself crazy. Yeah, Huishan is right. I seriously need to be happy. Too much is on my mind. Blame it on my excellent imagination. On top of it all, homework just keeps piling up. And I still am doing really badly in school. Midyears are coming. As well as O's. Hahaha okay whatever, this is a shitty post. I shall not continue.

Be happy, girl. Be happy. Isn't this what you wanted all along?

Even though it's over now, it still kills inside.
Cause for so long, you have been my life.

Hi. I have nothing much to post. I am really in love with the veronicas. Their songs are so good. As Amanda Ang said, they're beautifully emo. And not cheesy at all.

"She should just go be a lawyer." Shanjun.

Rofl. Something like that. MJL was hilarious today.

It feels just like I'm going crazy
I guess that this is breaking up
And now not even you can save me
Will someone wake me up?
Never thought that we'd go under
I guess we won't be making up
And if this is a dream I wonder
Could someone wake me up?

Do you even know how much it hurt
That you gave up on me to be with her
Revenge is sweeter than you ever were

Firstly, YAY YAY YAY YAY!
I think I'm getting A1 for CCA. I have an A2 now because they have yet to count my points for leadership. Yay yay yay! :D

Circuit training for PE. I ran a lot.

Then took sec twos for footdrill with Xinyi, Carol and Caitlyn. Caitlyn and I didn't do much but yeah whatever. In the end they had to run three (notverylongbutstill) rounds. Had to run with them so yeah. See, I ran a lot.

5 SEQs to do this weekend. Lovely, isn't it?

I think if I can't go to HCJC, I will go to SAJC.
If I can't go to SAJC, I will go to a poly.

Maybe Ngee Ann Poly's biomedical science or mass comm or tourism.
(near my house too.)
Don't know yet.

Yeah, so there.

P.S. I know you may not like me. Maybe you even hate me. Seriously, I don't care okay. You can bitch about me all you like. Just don't twist the facts. Say you hate my face, fine. Don't go around telling people other untrue things.

(edited;8.00pm)
Sorry, I'm random. I just remembered Jamie and Liangjie talking about the logo when we went to starbucks. Did you know the starbucks logo in Singapore is altered because you could see the woman's boobs? So I think the starbucks tee is pretty stupid. Like everyone is wearing it/selling it. And out of everyone who wears it how many will really know that the logo isn't the original starbucks logo? Or how many even are starbucks lovers? Why the hell everyone wants to wear a topless woman tee, I have no idea.

But it hurts when I think
When I let it sink in
It's all over me
I'm lying here in the dark

Just reached home.

I am thoroughly amused with the new seating arrangement. Next to Shanjun and Yileen. And I have Damien behind me too. He is such a twit, seriously. He was doing all sorts of twit poses, along with sulks and yeah. LOL. Tablemate, shoemate, rowmate, BFF and all his crap.

I miss Amanda Ng!!!! We're so far apart. Tsk.

After school, had very unproductive study sessions. (very entertaining though.) Perhaps I was self-entertaining. Kay whatever. Was with Rachel in school. She went home so went to JE mac with Ian. And Liangjie came to join for a while. Then I went for tuition. Talked a lot.

Yeah k bye. I have to do 4 seqs by tomorrow. I'm dead.
Hahaha yay not going to do anymore. Off to study bio.

I waste day after day waiting for your call.
And doing nothing meaningful.

My life is so aimless.

I can't even see myself in a year's time.

Whether it's now or later, I've got you.

I'm home early for once.

Studied chem like hell yesterday night and there was no test. Okay, not really. Still, studying chem is hell already.

Didn't study bio since it was supposed to be SPA and in the end, there was a test. We got scolded because almost everyone didn't study so it was postponed to Wednesday.

Enrichment is crappy. Did a compo in freaking 45 minutes or so. I don't know why I'm losing my talent in writing narrative and stuff. Maybe it's because nowadays I don't write those anymore. I end up trying all the stupid argumentative questions and killing my results. Bah.

Math was sleepy. Sorry, I really can't find another word to describe it.

Physics was alright. I have to come back to school every Saturday for like the coming month. Wonderful.

End of my shittily boring day.

By the way, after O's.. ANYONE WANTS TO BUY MY NOTES? My handwriting is super nice and neat, you won't have any problems reading it. I can sell to you per chapter or per subject if you like. :x HAHAHA.

Lots of homework.

Ultimately, cliche as it sounds, the future is in your hands.
Cheryl, please wake up!!

(edited;9.18pm)
I remember we have a math assignment due end of this month. It's more like history. Some writeup to do about some mathematicians or something. Can't remember the questions to choose from.
Failure to hand in will result in deduction of 5% of midyear a maths results.
Damn it. This is blackmail. Like I'm not failing badly enough. And tomorrow is going to suck. Double period of SS.

You said you loved me.

But I realized I never knew what was your definition of love.

If we missed out on each other, now.

I know I am posting too much. If you can't catch up because you're not a regular reader, I'm so sorry. It's not like I post for the sake of people reading. I'm posting for myself.

I aim to finish SS prelim paper, SS worksheets, 3 chemistry papers, as much of the physics paper as I can and sheng huo sui bi today. The rest can wait. Not to mention study for bio and chem revision test, as well as bio SPA.

On a random note, I realize though your heart can never be broken, it's forever bleeding. Literally. Blood goes in and out of your heart right? So why is bleeding hearts considered a sad thing? If not for it, we wouldn't be alive.

And seventeen had some survey on "have you ever considered dating your girlfriend's best friend?". The guys are damn mean. Wth.

"Girls can be sucked into their relationships and give too much. They like to be so into their boyfriends, you know? And you can't do that because you get too infatuated - and then you lose contact with your friends. It happens to a lot of girls."

By the way, I still have completed no homework and I have not studied. (Two tests + bio SPA) Raaaarh.

A beautiful song from Koizora. (also my blog song currently)
The lyrics are reallyyyyy nice.

I'm not bothering to post the translations because if you simply post it in English it looks hideous.
Too bad if you don't understand, you can go search for it yourself.

And yes, I learnt conversational japanese before. So please do not be so self-assuming and say, "She herself doesn't understand anything she's posting anyway." or shit like that and all.
I don't know how to write and yeah, I don't understand a lot of words but hey, I do know a bit of Japanese. -.-


Heavenly days / 新垣结衣

目覚ましが鸣る前に起きて 时を止める
思い出せるのはもうなんとなくだけど君の事

一亿分の君に会えた奇迹なんかも
いつの间にか忘れちゃうかな？
忘れた事さえもきっと忘れてしまうの

heavenly days
胸のポケットの部屋
君の消えたぬくもりを探すよ
もう二度と君を想うことはなくても
まだ少し暖かいあの日々に键をかけて

歩きつかれて座り込んで途方にくれて
叶わない梦『运命』とかふたりなら言えた

改札口で言えなかった言いたかった
｢ありがとう｣って言叶は多分
｢さよなら｣よりも悲しい言叶に思うの

heavenly days
うまく笑えてたかな？
最后のキスシーン震える君の手を
握れなかった涙さえ落ちなかった
一人ぽっちになり今さら溢れ出すよ

heavenly days
胸のポケットの部屋
君の消えたぬくもりを探すよ
もう二度と君を想うことはなくても
手を伸ばしてみてもここにはもう居ないよ
新しい光の下歩き出すよ

Out with Emelia and Alethea today.
Oh, today is ending in a while so I shall make this post quick.

Off to my favourite place (dhoby ghaut).

Ate lunch at Cafe Cartel. Since I'm hurrying, no photos. Alethea, I know you're feeling very relieved that I'm not posting the photos anymore. Anyway, our bill was like 60 right? Or somewhere there. So yeah, for three people. -.-

Watched step up 2. I think the dance is super cool! I'm going to learn dance with Jamie after O's. Yayyyy wonderful friends I have.

After that, we walked to orchard. And then just walked around.

I want to buy coloured shoelaces. -.-

Went to my cousin's house after that. And I'm now home.

I think my obsession with Jay Chou is fading away. No, I didn't like him just because I'm a crazy teenage girl who thinks he is oh-so-cute. He is damn talented. Yes, I still think that he is damn good but somehow, just.. ugh. Never mind.

Also, I am going to die one day. Perhaps, very soon. I mean, everyone knows radioactivity is going to kill you. I sleep with my phone under my pillow so yeah, you see. And I spend hours on my freaking handphone. Talked to Jiawen for two hours yesterday night. And Zhengda for almost three hours the day before yesterday. -.-

So hopelessly devoted and giving, it was obviously too good to last.

Don't give me a guilt trip, I'm so over it.

Going to be doing quizzes on my LJ. Yup.
251469.livejournal.com
(As I have mentioned, not going to anyhow add friends :D)

Hahaha I am still really happy about the CCA points.

Though I'm going to be damn screwed on Monday. Seeing as I have completed literally no homework. Everything is either half-done or untouched. Raaarh. And I have to study for chem revision test(damn you, salts), bio revision test and bio SPA on Sunday too.

Homework
Chem RV 2002 prelim
Chem RV 2003 prelim
Chem (holiday assignment -organic)
Chem workbook (redox)
SS NH prelim paper
Physics CT1 paper
A maths ex10.3
Sheng huo sui bi

And I will not include things that I've not been handing in/doing since long ago because I will never be finishing them anyway.

Time for you to go, cause you know I'm better off on my own.

And I can't say I've never wondered if you ever think about those days.

I'm ecstatic about getting an A for cca, meaning I can minus two points. Harharhar. I didn't know I already got the 100 hours for CIP, meaning this year I did a lot of CIP for nothing but it's okay. I got 0 points for the leadership part though. No idea why. Shall go check next time. I know it doesn't matter since it's already an A but the more points the merrier right!

Must mug must mug must mug.
Will come online less often once school reopens.

Did I mention I was obsessed with KOIZORA? :D

And sidetracking again. Where else can you find a girl as pretty, smart, confident, friendly, caring, kind (etcetc) as me? Rofl. You never will. So too bad.

P.S. Today is 白色情人节 or something in countries like Japan, where girls get to give presents to guys. I am jealous. I want to have those kind of stuff in Singapore too!!!! It's so cool right. Teenagers in Singapore are terribly shy. Sheesh. Watch sky of love. I mean, which guy in Singapore will actually chase a girl like that huh?

(edited;2.46pm)
Shit, I can't believe I forgot such an important point. I am so lucky to have someone like Amanda(Ang) in my life. True, we aren't as close as we used to be but like she said, our friendship has survived a lot. No doubt, she's the one I run to when I need someone. She's the one who will understand what I'm ranting about despite hardly being able to talk in school since we're split up in different classes. I really hope to go to the same JC as you! Though I know you are really smart and it's highly unlikely I will do as well as you so yeah. Hahaha love you anyway, girl. You shall be my motivation, to mug hard for O's.

It's game over. You lost this round.

Felt like no one could hear me.

I went to watch sky of love(koizora) at cathay with someone. And we got couple seat. Rofl!! Had fun with someone though we didn't have time to walk around. But I got to stand under someone's umbrella ella ella eh eh eh. And I laughed a lot with someone.

Yes, I am posting like this on purpose because I know you all are so kpo. :D

It's a super nice show. Hiro is so frigging cute. Ugh. And I think I broke my own personal record. I've never cried so much watching a movie okay. Hahah whatever. It was sad kaaaay. In fact, I hardly even cry this much. The last time I did was like.. because of somebodything.

Love the songs. The lyrics were so suitable. I have all the instrumental tracks but I can't get those with lyrics. Send me if you have. :D

Met so many people today. I haven't been to cathay in ages, aye.

如果没遇见你，我就不会有如此悲伤心痛的回忆。
但是，我也不会懂得什么是幸福快乐。

What Cheryl Means

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily. You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind. A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

I agree.

I'm worth all the crap that I'm putting you through.

Back from NUH again. The nurses are quite nice. Like, they let me see stuff because I'm interested in doing all that next time too. :D

KAP-ed with Alethea and Ian today. As usual, I couldn't concentrate with Ian around because he kept talking. It got better after he left anyway. HAHAHA.

He treated Alethea and I to McFlurry. Yaaaay for Ian. :D

Then went to Alethea's house because it was raining.

Borrowed a lot of shows. I'm going to have movie marathon tomorrow night or something.

I want to work in an asylum or with drug addicts doing rehab and stuff. I'm not joking. I've wanted to for quite some time. Hahaha yes. Or neurology. After all, fashion design is almost impossible. And a writer isn't easy too.

Off to read my teenvogue.

最美的不是下雨天 是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐

Brings back memories.

And I don't mind if you know it.

You are such a bitch, really.
I mean, please stop trying. It doesn't make you any prettier ANYWAY. You can't even compare to me, sheesh.
Not to mention, you're so desperate. My god. Luckily, I'm going to be off and away from this hellhole (school) in no time at all. Sure, I'll miss school but I'll be glad to not have to see you again.

Right, sorry.

My elmo tee is really cute. I love wearing it. Charlene Chan, can you take orders for big bird and cookie monster too! HAHAHA. And let's have an oogly outing again. It's been so long okay. I think the last time was going together to watch Singapore Idol.

I'm going to watch sky of love with someone on Thursday. Yayyyy then after that go walk and find sunglasses. Love love love!!

And at night, may be going to watch HORTON with Liangjie and Jamie.

Oh yes, did I tell you how much I love MATSUMOTO JUN and OGURI SHUN and HE JUN XIANG and ZHENG YUAN CHANG?

Not forgetting, SHERYL ZENG! :D
Shucks. I'm crazy over her already.

I want to watch leap years! I can't believe I haven't watched it yet.

KAP tomorrow with Eng Xiu Ying Alethea and maybe Ian. Hahaha! Yay.

By the way, I am so irritated that I can't go to friendster at all so I can't see the comments I've received. Whatever. To hell with friendster. My account shall just rot there. There's no point in it anyway. I go to friendster only to be annoyed even more. Zzz.

Sorry if I keep sidetracking but yeah.

1. Are you single?
HAHAHA yes. But I'm not easy to get okay.

2. Are you happy?
Pretty alright.

3. Are you bored?
Yes.

4. Are you sad?
Currently, I don't think so.

5. Are you Italian?
No.

6. Are you German?
No.

7. Are you Asian?
Yesss.

8. Are you cool?
Of course. Who can be cooler than me? Not even ice cubes manzzz.

9. Are you Irish?
No.

10. Are your parents still married?
Yes.

11.Are you Samoan?
Er no.

TEN FACTS

1. Birth Place:
Thomson Medical centre.
Rofl. I stayed there for more than a month and probably kicked got kicked by Zhengda in the nursery there.

2. Hair Color:
Black. I own brown extensions and I look forward to getting more colourful ones.

3. Eye color:
Brown? I don't know. The 'eye' is a rather general term. It can be so many colours right.

6. Birthday:
December 31. I'm special and you know it.

7. Mood:
Satisfied with life, lazy, bored.

8. Where do you live?
In a pigsty, also known as my room.

9. How many credit cards do you have?
None? Atm card, maybe?

10. Lefty/righty?
Lefty. See, what did I say about being special?

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE

1. Have you ever been in love?
I'm in love now, with a dozen people. SHERYL ZENG!!! I'm such a lesbian.
Oops, did I just say that?

2. Do you believe in love at first sight?
Maybe.

3. Why did your last relationship fail?
Because life was being a bitch and decided to get in the way.

4. Have you ever been hurt?
Yup. You mean to say you haven't?

5. Have you ever broken someones heart?
I hope to break yours and crush it into a million pieces. Then you will just disappear into nothingness.

6. Are you in love?
HELLO, SHERYL ZENG ARE YOU LOOKING AT THIS!! I think I am in love with you! Can I be your girlfriend?

7. Are you friends with your exs?
I think so.

8. Are you afraid of commitment?
Quite, yes.

9. Have you hugged someone within the last week?
Yeah.

10. Have you ever had a secret admirer?
Yeah. Lots and lots and lots. I believe you, reading this right now, are secretly admiring me too.

TEN THIS OR THAT?

1. Love or lust?
Lovelovelove.

2. Liquor or beer?
For now, neither because I think the taste sucks.

3. Cats or dogs?
Dogs. Male ones, thanks.

4. A few best friends or many regular friends?
Few best friends. :D

5. Television or Internet?
Internet. Rofl.

6. Pepsi or coke?
Er. HAHAHA I prefer drinking coke, if that's what you mean.

7. Wild night out or romantic night in?
Romantic night in. I am decent. No wild nights out okay.

8. Busch Gardens or Six Flags?
Harh.

9. Night or day?
Night!

10. IM or phone?
Depending on who and why.

TEN HAVE YOU EVER

1. Been caught sneaking out?
I have never done that before because there was never any need to.

2. Been skinny dipping?
No.

3. Done something you regret?
Maybe.

4. Bungee jumped?
No.

5. White water rafted?
White? LOL I don't know. I've gone water rafting though.

6. Finished an entire jaw breaker?
Think so.

7. Wanted something/someone so badly it hurts?
Maybe? Can't remember.

8. Prank called a store?
No.

9. Skipped school?
Yeah, I suppose.

10. Wanted to disappear?
Yes.

TEN PREFERENCES

1. Smile or eye:
Smile.

2. Light or dark hair:
Dark. In Singapore, it's more normal for that anyway.

3. Hugs or kisses:
Hugs.

4. Shorter or taller:
Taller, obviously. If you were shorter than me, that'd be sad, seeing as I'm so short already.

5. Intelligence or attraction:
Can I have both?

6. Romantic or spontaneous:
Romantic.

7. Jock or Nerd?
A little bit of both! Kay, sorry, I'm so greedy.

8. Hook-up or relationship:
Relationship. Why so desperate eh.

9. Funny and poor OR Rich and serious:
Er. Funny and poor is fine. You can't be that poor anyway.

10. Play the guitar or into sports:
Play the guitar.

TEN LASTS

1. Last phone call you made:
Jamie.

2. Last phone call you received:
Rachel.

3. Last person you hung out with:
A lot of 409 people, seeing as we had remedial yesterday. Alethea, Yanling, Waner, Rachel, Cynthia, Amanda, Abigail and all. Yeaaah.

4. Last person you hugged:
Eh.. Alethea? For wanting to call mac. Hahaha!

5. Last person you tackled:
No idea. I shall tackle Alethea the next time I see her.

6. Last person you IMed:
Yanling.

7. Last person you kissed:
Er maybe I should kiss Alethea as well as tackle her.
LOL okay never mind. Her head will explode after seeing this.

8. Last thing eaten:
Spaghetti.

Jamie's posts are inspiring. I mean, not the emo ones, but the more normal ones (for Jamie, they're normal.) do spark off many thoughts. Therefore, the title of this post is taken from her too.

By the way, Jamie, HAHAHAHA an alliance with your form teacher and your mum. Hey, and you forgot your bestie.

Yes, lucky for us, O's are coming. We're going to study together and I totally cannot wait to go to a JC/poly and meet new people. It's like a completely new beginning in life. How positively exciting. Of course, by saying that, it doesn't mean I'm going to forget everyone already. I will only forget you if you forget me, which is obvious you won't because I'm unforgettable.

Oh, I've been blogging consistently for years already.

Noisy little immature brats irritate me. There's no denying, we all used to be that. Not saying that I'm mature now, duh. Then again, everyone has to start somewhere.

I still think you're quite childish for expecting people to tell you every single little shit in their private love life, especially when you hardly ever talk to them.
I WANT TO JOIN DEBATE IN JC MANZZZZ.
Sorry, that's completely unrelated.

Okay, anyway, I won't forget everything we've been through. The good, the bad, the ugly too.

Really, I can't be bothered anymore. It doesn't concern me anyway, does it?

Words said in the past still annoy me but as they say, promises are meant to be broken.

Time waits for no one.

Finally, moving on with life.

I am doing many, many quizzes. :D
I'm practically flooding my own blog but yeah whatever, many parts are quite true.

You Are Strawberry Ice Cream

A bit shy and sensitive, you are sweet to the core. You often find yourself on the outside looking in. Insightful and pensive, you really understand how the world works. You are most compatible with chocolate chip ice cream.

I've got my heart set on anywhere but here.

Back from school, like finally.

I was late by almost 20 minutes for the argumentative workshop. Had to get a chair from other classes. Whatever. I didn't like it because he kept asking us to stay away from the argumentative compos. I do not agree, at all. I will do argumentative for O's. Then I will still get my A1 and laugh at you.

The second workshop on comprehension was alright. Pretty basic stuff, which won't help because the question will be so much harder in reality. I sat with Alethea and Cynthia. Cynthia was self-entertaining throughout.

I just knew that Cynthia's sister is called Cheryl too! AmandaNg was funny. She indirectly said that I'm very pretty. HAHAHA.

Had a short break before physics remedial. We called for macdelivery earlier on, so yup had that for lunch. Hahaha we're the best right!!

Physics ended quickly enough. Stoned at the 3rd floor lift lobby until three. Went off to auditorium again for chemistry test, which I screwed up. I sat _ of _ though. Cheers. Hao jiu bu jian.

Sidetracking; I was so tempted to throw all your books away. Zzz. Yes, I do hate you that much.

And only one person knows my passcode for touchy! You, better be honoured because if I die it'll be up to you. :D

and the tears are pouring.

As usual, by the time I met Jamie, we were 20 minutes late.
After meeting Emelia, when we finally met Liangjie, we were 40 minutes late.
So typical. I love going out with Jamie because we're forever late.

IT fair today with Liangjie, Jamie and Emelia. I looked damn weird and stuck out like a sore thumb because I was wearing leggings. Then again, I am not like you hypocrite. I dare to wear weird things because I am special. I dare to laugh at others because I'm not afraid of you laughing at me. After all, I AM SPECIAL. :D

Emelia left soon after. Then we studied redox at starbucks. Had haagen daz(sp?) ice-cream.

Harhar at you vertical freak of a pansy.

Went to buy LLJ's ipod touch too. His shall be named stalky. I fell in love with the 8gb pink ipod nano. I may get it next time (like long time later) if I can save enough. I will then name it huffy. I know I have an ipod touch. But 8gb really isn't enough for me okay.

(Oh, or I will get my huffy if I get an L1R5 of 8 for midyears.)

Arcade @ dhoby ghaut after that. Jamie and I topped up $20 and got $20 more free gameplay. So we were like wooooh happy hour. Hahaha Jamie, you owe me more than $10 of gameplay still. We have to go arcade again! :D

Can't go out with Jamie. We ended up having a food spree. Ate like such pigs. We were super childish with the candy floss. Even LLJ couldn't resist okay. :X I think she spent 30+ on food today. Rofl!

Seeyou. Redox test tomorrow. Damn screwed.

Erm I would have posted more but I think I will stop here because my eyes are itching like hell and I have a flu. I'm going out tomorrow so I need to get some sleep. Maybe more will come once I get photos from everyone else.



I look nice for once but Shanjun isn't looking at the camera. Bah.

I like thissss too! Like you eat spaghetti together then get the same strand. Rofl! I'm so gay. Never mind.

More to come next time! When I'm not dying of a flu/itchy eyes!

I count the steps that you take.


Today was fun enough. Yanling and I spent a lot of time to paste all the alphabets by ourselves. But we had a lovely buffet breakfast and lunch. Stuffed myself like crap. Took many photos. Can't wait for everyone to send me photos. Some groups were really fun. Like.. Yanling and I were playing some bonding game or something with Amanda, Jingwei, Kevin and Nigel's group. So funny.

Collected my stuff myself.
I'm broke but it's okay cause Huishan owes me $60 (cause I paid her to pay for me), Liangjie owes me $15 and I owe Emelia $15. Rofl!

Now, I'm home. Suckfest.

However, Sunday's coming soon. Lovely!

I have an LJ but I won't tell you. If you find it, good for you. If you can't, too bad. Some (or many posts) will be friends only though. And I will not accept you as a friend unless you are Emelia or Rachel or somebody like that. :D

And I met a girl from another school who played at Yanling and my game station today at the MRT and she said hi to me. Hahaha cool. I didn't know I made friends. :X

Shall post photos later. Bye!

P.S. I hate you, hypocrite. If you dare to laugh at people and all that, you should dare to be laughed at. If you can't stand being bitched about and all then you shouldn't do the same to others. I can bitch about you because I don't give a shit what you say about me. Thanks.

Hiiii, I am posting because I felt like it.

WSQJ, I love you loads alright. Be happy because you still have me. I'll be here for you. :D

And I love all you people too. All you people who are always there for me, who always cheer me up, who always make me laugh. You will know who you are.

I think you should just go away 'cause
There's no necessity for you to stay and
Next time you come around my way
Forget it baby

Firstly, my progress report sucks.

A. maths 35.0
Biology 77.0
Comb hum (geog) 40.0
Comb hum (SS) 72.2
Chemistry 57.0
English 63.3
Higher Chinese 68.6
Maths 90.0
Physics 51.1

And you know what. I only hit the target for bio, ss, higher chinese and e maths.
I am damn pissed that my english didn't hit the target. Like, helloooo? I'm Cheryl!!!! My English isn't this shit alright.
And see the contrast between my a maths and e maths. So shitty!!!!

L1R5 of 18 (if counting express chinese). Not good. But I'm considered lucky already.

My bio revision test sucks. 15/20.
My a maths binomial & simultaneous test was cool. 17/20. And it was cause I didn't put minus sign.

Hee. I think holidays should be abolished. Who really cares anyway. Holidays are just an excuse to dump us as much homework as possible. Have 3 prelim papers for chemistry. 1 past year common test paper for physics. 1 past year prelim paper for SS. And a lot more, but I shall not be listing out. I'll be typing till tomorrow.

Cheers to you. By the way did I mention 409 is overall 3rd in level for physics? Hahaha! And I got a pathetic C6. Never mind. Lots of positive influences around me. All the muggers. :D

I know, I know. My post has been all about school and school and school. You're so bored, I know. TOO BAD THOUGH. I don't care. Teeheehee.

I don't know how I'm going to study for redox test on Monday when I have CIP from 8.30am to 6.30pm tomorrow and I'm going out on Sunday. Rofl, bye.

You're not comin' in
A heart ready for a life of sorrow
No you can't come back tomorrow
Shut my windows
Lock my doors
'Cause my heart won't be your ragdoll anymore

Cheryl: Ah well. We deserve the best. And btw, you already have the best. Which is me, obviously. :D
Jamie: HAHA I LOVE YOU MAN.

I know, right? *bimbowristflick*
Yessss I love you too, my bestie.

Cynthiaaaaweeeee is always always online nowadays.
You know why?
Because she wants to talk to me!!

By the way, listen to fei1 mai4 pin3 by Jolin.
(I know she went for plastic surgery but shut up, her songs are still nice, she can sing and dance, so I don't care about her boob size.)
From me, to you. Shall post the lyrics one day.

All I wanted to feel
I wanted to love
It's all my fault now
A tradegy I fear

Hello.
I don't really know what to say here anymore.
My life is a bloody rollercoaster ride.
I don't understand anything on redox.
Someone, please save me in time for the test on Monday.
Goodbye.

Shiru-chan x3 Eki-chan. :D

I am funny. Rachel and I are funny people. You are not. So you should stop acting like you are funny like me.

Anyway, I'm going to learn Japanese from a proper language school after O's. Don't pangseh okay, Brenda! Now, my vocabulary is quite limited so yeah.

Yay, tomorrow I'm going to make Cynthia happy and take photos. Hahaha!

Maths test tomorrow. Yay for me. I'm so dead.

Don't know why I'm posting so randomly, again. I guess I've been feeling rather weird recently. Like, I can be laughing like crazy one moment and sad the next moment. LOL. Never mind, bye. I hope I don't fail a maths.

I've never even passed a maths once this whole damn year. (Okay, maybe it's just a term but yeah.)

Watashi wa suki Eki-chan desu!
Aishiteru yo. :D

School life is mundane.

Guides was quite fun though. Brenda, Eckky and I were going crazy over japanese shows, animes and all. And was bitching with Eckky throughout the day. Like, were smsing since last night till we could talk to each other in person during guides. Rofl.

We're going to get a really original tee for guides tee.
"this is our GUIDES TEE. stop staring."
HAHAHAHAA my god. It was so random but we thought it was pretty cool. Then the stop staring bit can't be seen when we tuck in during guides.

Happy birthday to Abigail and happy belated birthday to Evelyn!

I seriously need someone who is free on Saturday to go to Bukit Batok to collect 3 tops and pay $46 for me. I will pay you back, don't worry. Ahh. Who stays near there or something? Yanling, Shanshanzzz and I all have CIP. My busy life sucks.

And I just received my belt. Yay, so cool.
I am so obsessed over bags, belts and tops. I don't know how many I have now already.

P.S. AI SI NI LE, WONG SHI QIN. Let's go out for icecream!

いまならいえる

I think I'm going to create a private blog. And I post waaay too much here already. I am seriously resisting the temptation to use vulgarities because you know, I never do use them unless I am really pissed off. Tchhh.

I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night.

Thanks to Huishan, who's helping me pay for my two skirts and collecting the tops for me on Saturday! Love you shanshanzzzz! :D

SS test tomorrow. A maths test the day after tomorrow. Chemistry test on Monday.
Homework still piling up.

But I shall believe in myself because Audrey told me she got 26 for midyears. Yet, she's in NJC now. Heh, she's still superrrr cute kay.

Holiday plans so you know when you can ask me out (before I am fully booked)
Saturday; CIP 8am to 6.30pm
Sunday; IT fair/shopping/don't-know-what with Liangjie and Jamie
Monday; English workshop 8am to 12.30pm
Physics remedial 1pm to 2.30pm
Chemistry remedial 3pm to 4pm
Tuesday; Out with Yanling, Audrey, Gladys, Waner?
Tuition 6pm to 8pm
Wednesday; Free
Thursday; Free
Friday; Chinese remedial
Saturday; Free
Sunday; Free

P.S. School still sucks.
And my name in Jap sounds terrible.

It's just not right.

Cheryl is moodswingy but we shall not talk about the bad stuff.

She is positively delighted with herself.

13/18 for SS. The most unexpected results for this common test. I mean, hey, it's a frigging A2 okay! And I only wrote four lines for my SBQ, wasn't completed. Though my class highest is 16/18, my SS was never good so I'm happy.

48/70 for Chinese. I am proud of it too since I had no wrong words/sentence structure at all. Whoaaa right. It was just ticks and ticks and more ticks kay! And I think I could have done a lot better if I wrote suggestions. I left out the whole paragraph on that. :X

Went to central with Ian, Yanling, Gladys, Audrey, Amanda and Jingwei.

By the way, I love Amanda Ng Li'En that much. It must be telepathy that we had the same personal messages and when I opened her conversation, I realized we had the same display picture too.

She's mine already okay. No guy (I don't care who you are) will snatch her away from me.

Perhaps, what really made my day (other than SS) was Ian reading me all the jokes from 8-days. Yeah, thanks arh. For making me laugh like crap.

409 is already fully booked on Monday by remedials from 8am to 4pm. It's worse than normal school days but yeah whatever. Rofl. My mugger class, I love you so. Class jacket!!! :D :D

(edited;5.23pm)
I must have looked really sleepy in the morning because Ms JLim came all the way to my table and put her clipboard in front of me. Then it had all our horribly ugly photos on it. I stared at her. She stared back at me and went "You don't want to see arh?" I was like o_O why she suddenly showing me.
Off to tuition.

Such a long way back.

And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end.

I'm the best. I ordered macdelivery at 2am since I was still awake, asking them to deliver at 6+ so I could bring food to school.

I cannot believe I screwed up chem SPA today. I mean, it was the freaking easiest (Yes, even more so than titration) SPA I've ever sat for. I finished so early that I could clear up and sleep for a good long time. And I drew a perfect graph in one lovely stroke. I didn't need to erase at all.
BUT I DID ONE LESS READING THAN I WAS SUPPOSED TO!!!

My goodness. I hate my eyes. I swear they just don't want to communicate well with my brain.

Am not in a good mood.

Nevertheless, at least I have two subjects to be proud of for this common test. Have yet to get back Chinese and SS. Screw SS. I'm going to get that back tomorrow and words cannot describe how I dread that moment. Sathi is going to kill me. And it's not as if I like to not do well. Tchhh.

Sidetrack. I keep tripping and falling and getting into a lot of accidents nowadays. Walked home in the rain, almost slipped and fell. Banged into a lot of things. See, I told you. It's my stupid eyes again. I don't know why they're so mean to me.

I have a hell load of homework, which won't stop piling up. So much for holidays coming soon. Snowball effect. Pfft.

I like people like Mr Chia who are able to be bhb without making people puke.
"Are you looking at the whiteboard or looking at me? I know some of you like to look at me. Nothing wrong with that."

Will be going to suntec next Monday myself (unless someone wants to go with me), to hunt for belts.

Yeah I know this is a boring post. I'm in no mood to be funny or summarize anyway.

P.S. Mdm Junaidah is very nice. She baked brownies for us. It was superrrr nice. I think she should bake more and maybe give us every lesson. :D

I am so annoyed with myself now. I don't know why I'm so affected all of a sudden by those few words from you.

It's nothing but a lie.

VISIT OH-SOGLAMOROUS.BLOGSPOT.COM
CLICK CLICK CLICK

Heh okay. If you haven't realized, that's my blogshop.
Nothing much yet but I have school, homework and all so yup.

Haven't done any homework.

I hate school.

I feel like smacking someone. Damn you. Go screw yourself.

And I wonder when you will finally grow up and realize what a bitch you're being?

You're so blind. Never mind. That's your problem, not mine.

(edited;7.41pm)
I'm so amused. Censored because Liangjie doesn't want people to know what he said. He says they will think he is _____. :D

liangjie. 'if its cold outside... show the world the warmth of your smile... says:
hoho. if **** saw the *****. they wont like any **** already!
Cheryl, } oh-soglamorous.blogspot.com says:
probably everyone would be fighting for me and only me O:
Cheryl, } oh-soglamorous.blogspot.com says:
:X
liangjie. 'if its cold outside... show the world the warmth of your smile... says:
HAHA BU YAO LIAN :D

You can hide behind your stories, but don't take me for a fool.
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want, but I know, I know.

张韶涵


像一场梦却醒不过来
另一个我在看着我
她问我值不值得
为你付出所有
只要一想起你的温柔
就会让我看不清楚
你想做的你
没有谁强迫我坚强
我却都忍的住
清醒的孤独

你永远是我的最爱
不管爱你有多难
我的心只想属于你
无法预知的未来
你试着抱起我
却看见远方寂寞
爱将会克服一切
在我心中
我不会停止爱着你
握着你温热的手
就算偶尔透露
你的不安和放纵
我总是相信你

另一个你在看着我
他问我愿不愿意
给你更多自由
只要一想起你的忧愁
我想做的我
梦里的孤独
你永远是我的最爱


A pretty song by Angela. It's from her first album, which is a long time ago, but that doesn't matter.

Can't wait for June holidays.
I'm going to get extensions with Jamie again.
Actually this was decided a long time ago but I just remembered.

I'm getting either lime green or blue or purple.

:D :D :D

WONGSHIQINJAMIE!!!!!!

And my elmo tee is here!

YAY CHARLENE CHAN! :D

P.S. The way I spend money shopping online is scary. I have just ordered $30 worth of stuff (not stopping here either) and I owe Charlene $8. I am so broke already manzzz.

Chem SPA is on Monday. I think if it's the one on temperature, I will just go smell ammonia and faint or something. It's the most horrible SPA I've ever had this year lah, please. Kill meeee. I'm going to screw O's.

And I don't know.
This could break my heart or save me.
Nothing's real, until you let go completely.

Was in school from 8.30 to 1. Training session for next Saturday's CIP. So Yanling and I are game masters for some twister-like station. Mr Chia sponsored lunch.

And he's so funny okay. I bought $2 worth of chicken wings because my mum wanted. Then he was standing there and he was like "Eh chi zhe me duo hui pang ah!".

"Mei you bi ni pang la." :X

Hahahaha! Kay bye.

LOL @ YOU UGLY BITCH.

Three months and it's still harder now.
Three months I've been living here without you now.